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So remember when I used to be happy most of the time.....*sigh*
I found out from my brother yesterday that my mom doesn't think Chase and I will last.
Nor do I recall either parent (in fairness I didn't talk to my dad) indicating they were proud of me for passing all my classes. Cerauli said he was proud of me. I'm pretty sure Chase has told me he's proud. My mother just wanted to know how much I passed by. She doesn't get what a big deal it is for me to scrape by like I do in some classes. I have to be seriously bent out of shape before they'll tell me they're proud.
Chase got hired by Newmont. That means Elko Nevada. I believe it when he says it'll be fine, but I need to know how. I want to be able to make it work, I want to be able to marry him, I want to be able to spite my mother and be unbelieveably happy like I am with him...forever. I know it's going to be hard, but I don't know where to start and what to do. I don't think I'm coping better, I think I'm regressing back to where I compartmentalize everything. Chase is the one that made me stop and now to be strong for him, to be strong without him all I can do is keep it to myself.
I found out from my brother yesterday that my mom doesn't think Chase and I will last.
Nor do I recall either parent (in fairness I didn't talk to my dad) indicating they were proud of me for passing all my classes. Cerauli said he was proud of me. I'm pretty sure Chase has told me he's proud. My mother just wanted to know how much I passed by. She doesn't get what a big deal it is for me to scrape by like I do in some classes. I have to be seriously bent out of shape before they'll tell me they're proud.
Chase got hired by Newmont. That means Elko Nevada. I believe it when he says it'll be fine, but I need to know how. I want to be able to make it work, I want to be able to marry him, I want to be able to spite my mother and be unbelieveably happy like I am with him...forever. I know it's going to be hard, but I don't know where to start and what to do. I don't think I'm coping better, I think I'm regressing back to where I compartmentalize everything. Chase is the one that made me stop and now to be strong for him, to be strong without him all I can do is keep it to myself.