6 months
half a year and all i have to show for it is...nothing, something, anything everything?
who knows, as the music pours into me from the headphones i reflect on this wonderful ride through our penal system and conclude that its there as a necessary and sadly there will always be those in need of said establishment...
these eyes have seen and these ears have heard, so much
maybe its best that i have memory problems
sunrises, music, fresh air, freedom, privacy, space, friends
all things i lost, all things taken for granted and all things
now understood to new levels of awareness
values placed on things previously overlooked or dismissed or worshiped
soul searching
not a good habit but when all you have is time
you do a lot of it
suprising to note that those long periods of soul searching brought me to a lot of new understandings
heh
yeah right
after railing against the "unfairness" of it all
after taking the responisibility
after chasing the shadows of old skeletons in the closet
after thinking back over the monster i have been
after letting go of all the mistakes
after cmming to terms with all those splinters in the mind
after burying all the bodies in my heart
after letting go of everything i thought i knew
after discovering that all of that was merely the tip of the iceberg
i walked out of the detention center
and into a more uncertain future than ever
faced with everything i've been burned to spiritual ash
and trying to see in the smoke it made
who i will be
we'll see
who knows, as the music pours into me from the headphones i reflect on this wonderful ride through our penal system and conclude that its there as a necessary and sadly there will always be those in need of said establishment...
these eyes have seen and these ears have heard, so much
maybe its best that i have memory problems
sunrises, music, fresh air, freedom, privacy, space, friends
all things i lost, all things taken for granted and all things
now understood to new levels of awareness
values placed on things previously overlooked or dismissed or worshiped
soul searching
not a good habit but when all you have is time
you do a lot of it
suprising to note that those long periods of soul searching brought me to a lot of new understandings
heh
yeah right
after railing against the "unfairness" of it all
after taking the responisibility
after chasing the shadows of old skeletons in the closet
after thinking back over the monster i have been
after letting go of all the mistakes
after cmming to terms with all those splinters in the mind
after burying all the bodies in my heart
after letting go of everything i thought i knew
after discovering that all of that was merely the tip of the iceberg
i walked out of the detention center
and into a more uncertain future than ever
faced with everything i've been burned to spiritual ash
and trying to see in the smoke it made
who i will be
we'll see