It's been a while...
I know, I haven't written in a long time. I haven't had the time to sit down and write, but I do stop and peek in on everyone's entries when I have a few extra moments.
I'm house sitting right now. It's just me and a silky terrier in this big ol' place. It's got a jacuzzi bathtub in the master bathroom. It's got a workout room with a complete home gym. It's got the most big ass television I've ever seen in anyone's home. (Seriously, it's as big as the one's in the multi-purpose rooms at CNU.) There are two refrigerators, five bathrooms, ungodly amounts of silverware, paper/plastic cups/plates, kitchen utensils, frozen foods, dog toys, and one closet that is half full of cleaning supplies and the other half is full of liquor. This is, by far, the strangest house I've ever house sat for. Only two people and a dog live here.
All that aside, though... I'm finally updating! So, here it is:
I feel like I want to escape from myself. I feel like my life is swallowing me whole. I want to run so fast, I tear out of my skin and keep going until I can breathe and be weightless. I want to purge my life of everything that is collecting and pulling me down. I want to have time to go through and catch up on everything that has been being pushed aside for so long. I want to read the books and empty the boxes and do the laundry without looking at clothes that haven't been washed in two months because that was the last time I had time to clean them. I want to know which goals are the ones worth pursuing and which goals should be eliminated.
I want to stop the pain inside myself and stop the pain I bring to others. I want to sleep in without feeling guilty. I want to turn back time and watch Sharkboy and Lavagirl in 3D, because even if it is a really bad movie, wouldn't it be great to watch something so big and cheesy on a giant movie screen IN 3D!? I love 3D!
Anyway, the clock is ticking and my time is running short once again... I miss my Darlings (you know who you are), I miss my mommy, and I miss everyone else that ljs with me. Keep your fingers tapping away and I'll read it when I've got a moment.
I'm house sitting right now. It's just me and a silky terrier in this big ol' place. It's got a jacuzzi bathtub in the master bathroom. It's got a workout room with a complete home gym. It's got the most big ass television I've ever seen in anyone's home. (Seriously, it's as big as the one's in the multi-purpose rooms at CNU.) There are two refrigerators, five bathrooms, ungodly amounts of silverware, paper/plastic cups/plates, kitchen utensils, frozen foods, dog toys, and one closet that is half full of cleaning supplies and the other half is full of liquor. This is, by far, the strangest house I've ever house sat for. Only two people and a dog live here.
All that aside, though... I'm finally updating! So, here it is:
I feel like I want to escape from myself. I feel like my life is swallowing me whole. I want to run so fast, I tear out of my skin and keep going until I can breathe and be weightless. I want to purge my life of everything that is collecting and pulling me down. I want to have time to go through and catch up on everything that has been being pushed aside for so long. I want to read the books and empty the boxes and do the laundry without looking at clothes that haven't been washed in two months because that was the last time I had time to clean them. I want to know which goals are the ones worth pursuing and which goals should be eliminated.
I want to stop the pain inside myself and stop the pain I bring to others. I want to sleep in without feeling guilty. I want to turn back time and watch Sharkboy and Lavagirl in 3D, because even if it is a really bad movie, wouldn't it be great to watch something so big and cheesy on a giant movie screen IN 3D!? I love 3D!
Anyway, the clock is ticking and my time is running short once again... I miss my Darlings (you know who you are), I miss my mommy, and I miss everyone else that ljs with me. Keep your fingers tapping away and I'll read it when I've got a moment.