a ray of sunshine
So I have been sick for like the past 2 days now...no biggie because it is really just allergies that will eventually go away....I just feel like crap....
Moving right along though...today is a sad day for me...one of them is because a stupid boy - and we aren't going to get into that....but mainly because today is the day that my mother passed away 8 years ago...i can't believe that it has been that long...it seems like it was just yesterday that i lived through this horrible nightmare....
A lot has happened in those past 8 years though...a lot of good times...but also a lot of regrets...a lot of learning...and a lot of things i went through that i wish i didn't have to...and through it all...I wish I had my mother there to comfort me and to tell me it will all work out in the end...or to tell me when i am being stupid....i miss her so much....
When it is all said and done with though...I know she is looking down on me and she looks over me...there are a lot of times that i feel her presence...sometimes i think i even see her...which sounds kind of weird...but it is the truth...she will always be in my heart...forever and always...
So with that said...the past few days I have been talking to this boy...i'm not going to go into much detail about everything because it is special right now and i want to keep it that way...he makes me smile...he sent me flowers today...daisies...they are my favorite...
As for now though...things are going pretty good and i hope that they stay that way...i feel my life turning around for the good and maybe i just might get my fairytale in the end...
Moving right along though...today is a sad day for me...one of them is because a stupid boy - and we aren't going to get into that....but mainly because today is the day that my mother passed away 8 years ago...i can't believe that it has been that long...it seems like it was just yesterday that i lived through this horrible nightmare....
A lot has happened in those past 8 years though...a lot of good times...but also a lot of regrets...a lot of learning...and a lot of things i went through that i wish i didn't have to...and through it all...I wish I had my mother there to comfort me and to tell me it will all work out in the end...or to tell me when i am being stupid....i miss her so much....
When it is all said and done with though...I know she is looking down on me and she looks over me...there are a lot of times that i feel her presence...sometimes i think i even see her...which sounds kind of weird...but it is the truth...she will always be in my heart...forever and always...
So with that said...the past few days I have been talking to this boy...i'm not going to go into much detail about everything because it is special right now and i want to keep it that way...he makes me smile...he sent me flowers today...daisies...they are my favorite...
As for now though...things are going pretty good and i hope that they stay that way...i feel my life turning around for the good and maybe i just might get my fairytale in the end...