this is the worst day of my life. i could never ever in my very wildest dreams have ever pictured this happening.

..and there's nothing i can do about it...for now anyways.

i don't know what to do or think. i feel sick. i think i'm gunna go throw up. and i have black lung from chain smoking too many cigarettes.

fuck.

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