why am i like this....???
why cant i be normal? i just want to be normal. i can describe my self in so many different ways, but i think i could only think of 1 positive thing... if that
im so fuckin jelous and selfish, again tonight suprise suprise but what are ya gonna do? im tryin so hard not to be but i just cant help it its how i am but im not givin up im still workin on it
hm... im thinkin i should just end this part of the entry now and resort to paper, i cant publicize it... (if you wanna know ask, will i tell you? probably not but its worth a try right? maybe...)
but any way omg i had to work tonight and it was hectic as fuckin hell! so many damn people sheesh! and of course i was the only one that could ring cus no one else was there, and i had the damn film too damn it! blah but any way after some help finally got there around 7:45 i got in a better mood lol
i felt like shit today at school, my head was hurtin so bad, so of course i took too much meds but shhh dont tell... and yeah tomorrow should be interesting cus i have to get a damn EEG (some kind of brain waves scan or some shit)
well i guess im gonna run cus i dont feel like sayin any thing else cus i might end up sayin somethin i dont want to, oh man alrighty, g'night
*~LauRen~*
im so fuckin jelous and selfish, again tonight suprise suprise but what are ya gonna do? im tryin so hard not to be but i just cant help it its how i am but im not givin up im still workin on it
hm... im thinkin i should just end this part of the entry now and resort to paper, i cant publicize it... (if you wanna know ask, will i tell you? probably not but its worth a try right? maybe...)
but any way omg i had to work tonight and it was hectic as fuckin hell! so many damn people sheesh! and of course i was the only one that could ring cus no one else was there, and i had the damn film too damn it! blah but any way after some help finally got there around 7:45 i got in a better mood lol
i felt like shit today at school, my head was hurtin so bad, so of course i took too much meds but shhh dont tell... and yeah tomorrow should be interesting cus i have to get a damn EEG (some kind of brain waves scan or some shit)
well i guess im gonna run cus i dont feel like sayin any thing else cus i might end up sayin somethin i dont want to, oh man alrighty, g'night
*~LauRen~*