So, I haven't updated this thing in a while. I was just reading my last post. Fuck that. My life is a million times better now. In fact, I love my life. I enjoy waking up everyday. I still hate my job but who doesn't? I love not having roomates. I enjoy cooking dinner. I love taking naps on the couch. I even don't mind cleaning everyday. I love ( Read more... )

Why is life so unfair? Are we put here just to see how much suffering we can withstand? I feel like my whole life shattered with one sentence. I'll never be the same again. Once in a lifetime, if that. I'll never have that again, I'll never feel that way again. Not with out you.

fuck

wow I never thought I'd live to see my 18th birthday.

Why is it that we are always attached to someone no matter what? How come a certain family member can turn their back on your family, yet you still love them? How come it can be so devistating when you try to find someone who you haven't seen, or heard from in over 13 years? That long, and you still get your hopes up about finding them? And then ( Read more... )

I hate caring about people. why is it so hard to start caring about someone? and then when you do its so easy to get upset over nothing. yet you can't help but think its something, and imagine the worst. I hate this and I want to cry. I want to go to sleep, and wake up and everything will be okay. but everything is already okay, I know it is and I ( Read more... )

Hi jamie. how come it smells like cat shit in here?

I read something tonight that brought tears to my eyes. It was written by someone I know. I never thought someone could be so amazing. He made me feel so much better, and he'll never know. I'm sorry I hurt you, and didn't realize. You are the most amazing person I know. You'll always be in my heart.

I cant sleep if I know my shirt is inside out..

oh I think they like me