What you never wanted to hear....alll rolled into one long paragraph
I made an entry saying i was so happy. Happy isnt real to me anymore. Happy is a state of mind that people make up so they dont slit there wrists. Im sorry to be so obscure. I just think that reality is what you design it to be. I see dark everywhere. Beauty is skin deep. Im sorry to say but the world makes up lies based on greed they have in mind. Nobody will like you if you are ugly and fat. Im sorry. Im not trying to be a bitch. This is truth. This is what ive learned so far. Dont believe them when they say it doesnt matter. You are who you are. Sometimes i cant face that. I cannot look into the mirror without pouring my heart out into a make believe. God? What the fuck is a god. If there is hes a perverted discusting fuck who likes pain and war. To all you who look down to people who betray the bible i pity you for you are ignorance at its greatest. Religion is a joke. Look at it. Its war. It a reason for mankind to let go of there animosity. Its a reason to die with some sort of dignity and pride. Ego trips are fun. But this is getting out of hand. Im going to die. As are you. I want to die with understanding not with curosity. I want love not filled with pain. I just want...Life.
I may never write in this journal again.
We'll see.