This makes no sence i just needed to get some shit off my chest.
One more day goes by that you feed me your bullshit lies that make me fall deeper into your eyes and make me wanna rip out my heart and bleed for you.
I try so hard each time we hang out not to let you in. But part of me knows you always have me. So it turns into a who can stare who down the most game. Im so over this i cant even begin to tell you how i feel. I wish i could scream everything i ever felt into your ears but that would take an eternity. And i dont think the whole truth would come out. If you knew the whole truth you'd be so afraid. Trust me. I just wanna get this over with i want you to hurt me so damn bad i forget about u. Youd think what you did before would have done that but then i find out the facts and realize you tryed not to hurt me. Ugh everything in your mind pisses me off.
What honestly kills me the most is when you are looking at me and thinking about...her. Sometimes i can see it after awhile i just feel dead. I feel like im not good enough i feel like i should have sumthin i should have SCREAMED sumthin. But my mouth is dry and my words are not thought out. I need to think it out before i say it to you. So im perfect in your mind. Arent i perfect? Not like you.
Lets fight over you lets tell you to your face. Am i winning in your mind now. I pushed you away are you going to chase me?...You started to chase me a few times. But those few times are so fucking dead now.
You are so fucking dead.
Dead.
dead.
To me.
And i never need to see the sun again theres enough light in your eyes to light up our little world.