I was ok until...
I was good today and had it in my mind that i was NOT going to purge.
cereal bar for breakfast with coffee,
f/f cottage cheese and coffee for lunch,
dinner I had 1/2 cup of rice and a soy patty
...then my husband said he had to go into work for a few hours and I got sooo depressed and gave in. I put the baby to bed and ate
1-lb bag of potato chips
1-liter of diet coke
4-1oz pieces of chedder cheese
5-cookies and
1-LARGE piece of cheesecake
it didnt take long for that to come up, it was a horrible combination in itself. I feel like a failure, everytime I think I am going to be strong something inside me says i am too weak... but this is how I like it you know, to have to submit to something that has the power to hold me down...
cereal bar for breakfast with coffee,
f/f cottage cheese and coffee for lunch,
dinner I had 1/2 cup of rice and a soy patty
...then my husband said he had to go into work for a few hours and I got sooo depressed and gave in. I put the baby to bed and ate
1-lb bag of potato chips
1-liter of diet coke
4-1oz pieces of chedder cheese
5-cookies and
1-LARGE piece of cheesecake
it didnt take long for that to come up, it was a horrible combination in itself. I feel like a failure, everytime I think I am going to be strong something inside me says i am too weak... but this is how I like it you know, to have to submit to something that has the power to hold me down...