not taking a nap...
If you've posted one of those "100 Facts" things, I read each & every line.
Alright, let's start this shit
1. College is amazing now. Big difference from last year :\
2. Last year, I made only two friends. One of them, being my boyfriend.
3. Yah, I was a little miserable
4. Alpha Phi has completely changed my experiences
5. & I can't even believe it's only been less than a month
6. I love my classes (the subjects), but I never go to class
7. I never fully realized how badly depression & anxiety took over my life until my theatre professor told me to get my shit together
8. That & Cameron's advice were the deciding factors on my going on meds.
9. So far, it's been one of the top 5 best decisions I've ever made.
10. Among the top 5- Alpha Phi, Meds, Breaking up with my ex & Moving out.
11. I know that was only four, but you can suck it
12. I hate mess.
13. & the mess in my apartment for that matter
14. Currently, there is some disgusting fungus looking thing growing in my bathroom
15. I sprayed it with Lysol & it's dying
16. For all I know, the spores could be deadly
17. But I'm in college. I'm lazy.
18. I have a huge problem with authority
19. & being told what to do, doesn't exactly sit well with me
20. I'm never wrong
21. Not having to answer to anyone is the best feeling in the world
22. So is an unusually long orgasm
23. Unsuccessful masturbation is on the opposite end of that spectrum
24. That's why I gave it up all together- masturbation, that is.
25. & that's a benefit of having a boyfriend. I get it when I want ;)
26. While we're on this topic- I really love sex.
27. If I had to give up sex or food, I'd give up food.
28. I love food, but I'm an unofficial anorexic
29. Thanks, Zoloft!
30. ...but I'm still fat
31. I have several [romantic] weaknesses
32. Among the top [in no particular order are...]: being called beautiful, being held, cupping my face, kisses on the neck, & a chase/the unattainable
33. I'm a firm believer in the notion of wanting what you can't have
34. It's pretty much the story of my life
35. & on that note, fuck my life
36. I sometimes forget how young I am
37. & don't fully understand that in a matter of only a few years, I'll have no excuse for free-riding
38. Because I hate working
39. My mom gives me $300 every two weeks for allowance
40. But I'm most definitley NOT spoiled
41. My first car ever [& I still drive it] is a '99 Black Jetta
42. I got it in April at the age of 18
43. You know that Garden State quote about your home not being your home anymore?
44. It's fucking scary as shit
45. but it's completely true
46. I'm currently addicted to myspace
47. I'm not joking, it keeps me from doing my homework most of the time
48. & I myspace-stalk just like the rest of you [& I wish it logged who comes to my myspace & when. That would be cool].
49. But in no way do I believe myspace is an accurate representation of a person
50. It sure as hell does a good job at representing the happier, trendier, & more social aspects of someones life though
51. In an MTV 2 VJ search, I became a finalist
52. I watched my audition video, & I look like shit
53. I in no way, shape or form expect to win- but it's kind of cool
54. I sincerely hope you all voted by now
55. Music evokes a certain emotion in me closely tied to nostalgia
56. I can't listen to the music from the most emotional times in my life
57. I lose myself sometimes when listening to a song
58. It's almost like a surreal moment from a movie
59. I pretend like my life is a movie, sometimes & I'm just the confused & misunderstood protagonist
60. The same type of feeling I have about music, I have with movies
61. Movies are by far, the best escape
62. I *WILL* make movies one day
63. I'm not quite sure if I believe in "love" or "the one" anymore.
64. That whole notion kind of destroyed itself for me
65. But I love being in love
66. If you can call it that?
67. Being single sucks balls
68. Though I can't speak from much experience- I haven't truly been single since I was 15
69. & about a month ago, I thought I really had it all figured out
70. I've been to several psychics
71. & they've all told me the same thing
72. I'll be a successful entertainer (without knowing that I act, at all)
73. In my later years, I will have published a successful novel (without knowing that I write)
74. I will live a long & healthy life with no severe complications
75. Cool?
76. I've never once contemplated my "purpose"
77. But I'm pretty confident that whatever I'm supposed to do or become, will happen.
78. Because everything happens for a reason.
79. I don't think I've ever believed in something more
80. But I used to be religious
81. Like, attended church regularly & really believed that my religion was the one true religion & everyone else was going to, unfortunatley, burn in hell
82. I don't believe in "religion" anymore- it's a corrupt sham.
83. But I firmly believe in God- no one will ever convince me otherwise
84. I hate politics & any sort of discussion of it
85. It's become so fucking pretentious, like it's somehow unacceptable to have views or beliefs different from what's socially accepted
86. I'll kick you in the nuts if you try & talk politics with me
87. Ugh, & nothing's a bigger turn-off to me than blind patriotism & the phrase "Bush is Hitler"
89. At the age of 3, I jumped from the edge of my couch onto my mom's upside down high heel shoe- Crotch first
90. Let's just say, it was painful & my fantasy of becoming Ariel from the Little Mermaid were temporarily shattered
91. I was grounded for an entire summer in the 6th grade because I had a boyfriend
92. I broke up with him because my friend told me she thought he was a loser
93. I love marijuana
94. ...but I'm not a stoner
95. Okay, well I am
96. & it's pretty much safe to say that I'm addicted
97. but being stoned at disneyland was the worst idea I've ever had
98. or, being stoned around completely sober people for that matter
99. I could probably go on with this to #200.
100. But I'll stop here
101. It's because I'm a leo- we're attention whores & like talking about ourselves
Alright, let's start this shit
1. College is amazing now. Big difference from last year :\
2. Last year, I made only two friends. One of them, being my boyfriend.
3. Yah, I was a little miserable
4. Alpha Phi has completely changed my experiences
5. & I can't even believe it's only been less than a month
6. I love my classes (the subjects), but I never go to class
7. I never fully realized how badly depression & anxiety took over my life until my theatre professor told me to get my shit together
8. That & Cameron's advice were the deciding factors on my going on meds.
9. So far, it's been one of the top 5 best decisions I've ever made.
10. Among the top 5- Alpha Phi, Meds, Breaking up with my ex & Moving out.
11. I know that was only four, but you can suck it
12. I hate mess.
13. & the mess in my apartment for that matter
14. Currently, there is some disgusting fungus looking thing growing in my bathroom
15. I sprayed it with Lysol & it's dying
16. For all I know, the spores could be deadly
17. But I'm in college. I'm lazy.
18. I have a huge problem with authority
19. & being told what to do, doesn't exactly sit well with me
20. I'm never wrong
21. Not having to answer to anyone is the best feeling in the world
22. So is an unusually long orgasm
23. Unsuccessful masturbation is on the opposite end of that spectrum
24. That's why I gave it up all together- masturbation, that is.
25. & that's a benefit of having a boyfriend. I get it when I want ;)
26. While we're on this topic- I really love sex.
27. If I had to give up sex or food, I'd give up food.
28. I love food, but I'm an unofficial anorexic
29. Thanks, Zoloft!
30. ...but I'm still fat
31. I have several [romantic] weaknesses
32. Among the top [in no particular order are...]: being called beautiful, being held, cupping my face, kisses on the neck, & a chase/the unattainable
33. I'm a firm believer in the notion of wanting what you can't have
34. It's pretty much the story of my life
35. & on that note, fuck my life
36. I sometimes forget how young I am
37. & don't fully understand that in a matter of only a few years, I'll have no excuse for free-riding
38. Because I hate working
39. My mom gives me $300 every two weeks for allowance
40. But I'm most definitley NOT spoiled
41. My first car ever [& I still drive it] is a '99 Black Jetta
42. I got it in April at the age of 18
43. You know that Garden State quote about your home not being your home anymore?
44. It's fucking scary as shit
45. but it's completely true
46. I'm currently addicted to myspace
47. I'm not joking, it keeps me from doing my homework most of the time
48. & I myspace-stalk just like the rest of you [& I wish it logged who comes to my myspace & when. That would be cool].
49. But in no way do I believe myspace is an accurate representation of a person
50. It sure as hell does a good job at representing the happier, trendier, & more social aspects of someones life though
51. In an MTV 2 VJ search, I became a finalist
52. I watched my audition video, & I look like shit
53. I in no way, shape or form expect to win- but it's kind of cool
54. I sincerely hope you all voted by now
55. Music evokes a certain emotion in me closely tied to nostalgia
56. I can't listen to the music from the most emotional times in my life
57. I lose myself sometimes when listening to a song
58. It's almost like a surreal moment from a movie
59. I pretend like my life is a movie, sometimes & I'm just the confused & misunderstood protagonist
60. The same type of feeling I have about music, I have with movies
61. Movies are by far, the best escape
62. I *WILL* make movies one day
63. I'm not quite sure if I believe in "love" or "the one" anymore.
64. That whole notion kind of destroyed itself for me
65. But I love being in love
66. If you can call it that?
67. Being single sucks balls
68. Though I can't speak from much experience- I haven't truly been single since I was 15
69. & about a month ago, I thought I really had it all figured out
70. I've been to several psychics
71. & they've all told me the same thing
72. I'll be a successful entertainer (without knowing that I act, at all)
73. In my later years, I will have published a successful novel (without knowing that I write)
74. I will live a long & healthy life with no severe complications
75. Cool?
76. I've never once contemplated my "purpose"
77. But I'm pretty confident that whatever I'm supposed to do or become, will happen.
78. Because everything happens for a reason.
79. I don't think I've ever believed in something more
80. But I used to be religious
81. Like, attended church regularly & really believed that my religion was the one true religion & everyone else was going to, unfortunatley, burn in hell
82. I don't believe in "religion" anymore- it's a corrupt sham.
83. But I firmly believe in God- no one will ever convince me otherwise
84. I hate politics & any sort of discussion of it
85. It's become so fucking pretentious, like it's somehow unacceptable to have views or beliefs different from what's socially accepted
86. I'll kick you in the nuts if you try & talk politics with me
87. Ugh, & nothing's a bigger turn-off to me than blind patriotism & the phrase "Bush is Hitler"
89. At the age of 3, I jumped from the edge of my couch onto my mom's upside down high heel shoe- Crotch first
90. Let's just say, it was painful & my fantasy of becoming Ariel from the Little Mermaid were temporarily shattered
91. I was grounded for an entire summer in the 6th grade because I had a boyfriend
92. I broke up with him because my friend told me she thought he was a loser
93. I love marijuana
94. ...but I'm not a stoner
95. Okay, well I am
96. & it's pretty much safe to say that I'm addicted
97. but being stoned at disneyland was the worst idea I've ever had
98. or, being stoned around completely sober people for that matter
99. I could probably go on with this to #200.
100. But I'll stop here
101. It's because I'm a leo- we're attention whores & like talking about ourselves