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[sexytarawitch]

Quietly I keep the fact that Angel picked out the worlds cheesiest movie. He meant well and I'm sure I can sit through it without dozing off...I might fall asleep but it's something that my body needs anyhow. He's sweet enough to want to sit with someone who looks so broken right now and just keep me company. "The cookies are good," I tell him,

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[_keep_me]

It makes me feel awful that she has to get out of bed and help me with a simple piece of technology...that I couldn't use even if I had a manual. I watch in fascination as she works both the box and the playing device with ease, pushing buttons as if they were fully labeled- Oh. Which they are. I give her a sheepish look and then smile at her tiny kisses

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A soft sigh escapes my lips and I can feel it vibrate though my sore body and I wish beyond anything that this pain would go away, that the memory of everything that happened would go away

[_keep_me]

Looks like I'm not having ice cream. Somehow that doesn't surprise me. Didn't really think she wanted frivolous anyway. Maybe for a second it sounded good, but I can practically feel everything come crashing back to her. Doesn't matter to me what we do as long as I can make her feel better, make her feel safe

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The movie melts into the background of the room and I put my focus on Angel and this moment. I might be bruised and broken but he makes me feel unharmed, like nothing happened. We're just...normal

[_keep_me]

She doesn't seem quite as tense the longer we sit together, but I can't imagine that a little holding from me is going to do her that much good. She's really going to need a lot of rest. This stuff isn't going to go away on its own.

It feels good to have her respond and nuzzle closer though. Good to know she knows I'm here and she can lean on me. Or I hope she knows she can lean on me.

"Curious about what?" I ask carefully, not really sure she's ready for this conversation. "Vampire, sun allergy, liquid diet, not really that interesting. Even Cordy'll tell you that," I murmur, kissing the top of her again.

"Are you sure there's nothing else you need? Another blanket or something," I ask trying to shift the subject. "Or if you want to sleep, I can stop keeping you awake," I offer, wincing at how that must sound like I'm trying to bolt. Not that her question doesn't make me want to, but still. I'm gonna be there for her. "Or if you want a massage, I can do those too," I add trying to cover my tracks.

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Angel's change of subject makes mine look like I'm an amature, and it's been something that I've done since the day my mother died and I put my focus back on magic

[_keep_me]

This is the part I'm never good at. The part with the parent meeting and the small talk. The part with, 'Oh, tell me about yourself, Angel,' the part where I avoid eye contact and start pointing out pointy objects and their history, or paintings and their backstories. It's not that I'm uncomfortable talking about myself, it's that I'm uncomfortable talking about Angelus, and...a good two-thirds of my life is his story, not mine

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A gentle blush creeps up onto my face when he tells me I'm pretty, I know he means it but it's stil so new to me that someone see's me that way. Sometimes I still feel so bruised from Willow, even if it's been a while now

[_keep_me]

"A year's pretty short," I murmur, rubbing my thumb over her knuckles. "You've still got time," I murmur, taking in all that she's told me. We've all had a rough life. This girl's got the bruises to show for it. But I think she's still got time to figure out her life. If we can keep the people who did this to her away.

"The magic, did you like it? Or do you still, I mean," I ask, thinking about some covens I've heard of where the people you learn and practice magic with kind of become a part of you and it's hard to have the same energy when they're gone. I know she had her spells she was going to try to keep her family away, but she was desperate, and I wonder if she'd still use magic if she didn't have to.

"You should probably try to get some sleep. Heal," I murmur, kissing her hair again but still keeping her close. "I'll be right here," I say to reassure her. I don't want her to think that I'm going anywhere or that she's going to be abandoned and wake up alone again. Not gonna happen.

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He seemed to soak in everything I said, which was a nice change to tell someone something and they actually wanted to listen. It's something that I can easily find myself getting used to and I think I like it.

Angel mentions magic and I feel my insides getting rumbly with worry before I speak. "It's a part of me. To me it's just something that is; it's a privlage and something that should be respected and not something to take advantage of." I sigh softly. "I haven't for a while, I didn't think it was safe enough at my apartment and I'm usually at school or at Lorne's."

My eyes close for a moment when he tells me again to rest; but this time I yawn before I speak and simply nod. I start realizing that I am feeling a bit more tired than I thought and nobody knows where this place is so I'll be okay.

"A nap might be good, sleep better too. I know you'll be here;" I murmur quietly against his chest, closing my eyes as my fingers find his. "Thank you, Angel."

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