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[almondeyez03]

If I am not crying I am sleeping. If I am not sleeping I am crying. Or if not either of that I am crying in my sleep so what is the difference? Nothing. Because my ASS IS TO DEPRESSED TO KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE. I just want to be home and want to be where I am loved. Because in places like this I need to figure out a lot of things. I want to just be

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[almondeyez03]

1.Typical day - Well I get up at 6 take a shower and then I go downstairs to eat breakfast. and then i stay in the living room until 9 and then I go to school until 12 and then go back to my cottage at 12-1 and then we go back to school from 1-3. then I usually go off grounds from 3-5 and then come back to the cottage to go eat dinner then go up stair at 6-7 and then at 7 I leave the cottage to go to the lounge and return at 9. and then do chores and then go upstairs take another shower and then go to sleep.
Out-of-ordinary- do nothing just about sit around on my ass. and just relax and write. or go on a rec trip off grounds like I did this weekend I went to the White plains mall.

2.I would LOVE to live in ice land. I heard that is it very mysitcal. It would make me happy there because there are things that you can feel there and you know things are around you and you know what is going on most of the time and that there is a different perspective to what people think and you know I am always up for trying and finding new things out.

3. The judge say I had a year but I have already done 4 months already but if I believe right I am only going to have to be here up until the end of June beginning of July. Because I am basically here for my schooling because I didn't usually go. And there was for reasons because people can be so ignorant. And I would of thought that people would of atleast growen up a little then they hit high school...But everyone proved me wring and was just as ignorant as they were in elementary and middle school.

4. Yes, I did follow all of the rules that were given to me. I wouldn't of been in the situation if it wasn't for my father because my father wanted me to be sent away. Because he had the last word and that I knew he didn't want me home. So he didn't say anything...because I think if he really wanted me home he would of said something that day. Even people that I have talked to about this had said it is basically all of my father's fault that I am here.

5. Just things that I have had to deal with in my past are coming back up...like the whole entire things of not being home anf how much it hurts me. And by being in here I am becoming really depressed and that I want to just go and slice my wrist's I really do I would reather really be 6 feet under then in here because it just brings me mostly back to my middle school and high school years and it is just really upsetting even though I know what is right and wrong about me. Doesn't mean that people will believe me. Not like anyone believes me at all. It is hard for the concept or having to be here if it just reminds me of people and my past and something got out that people have been harrassing me about...and that is about my mother and it is killing me and making me even more depressed.