i cannot let past be the past
jamie: yea, see that's so great, but then i hate to say it, but we'll meet great people through out our lives and they will come and go. Even if they did make a lasting impression. So, we thank God that they came, and try to get out a lesson; something as to a reason they did come into our life
jamie: and continue on our own journey and look foward to others or possible old friends
I refuse to accept that. How can that be? how can someone just let go like that. as if nothing had ever really occured. did they fake the feelings they had? were they never really felt? thinking of this only raises more questions in my head. Was I not worthy of such a great friendship? not that that is my one and only great friendship. I have had many and I am glad that I have. But that one specific friendship meant the world to me. and for it to decay over a fucking girl. is fucking ludicrous. I'm sorry but by no means is she more valuable than me. I think I, myself, am more valuable than that. But one mans trash is another mans treasure right? Am I so wrong? what the fuck maybe I'm better than this fucking friendship. Maybe you're too childish. Maybe I've got things backwards. Maybe you were right and I am the one at fault. But then talking shit about me to mutual friends doesn't make it seem like you were right. You made it seem as if I always had to know what you two were doing. I admit I felt kind of left out but I got over it and I was like fuck it. And in the end I really didnt give a shit what you two were doing. Not a fucking shit. so for you to talk shit was meaning less and only made me laugh cause you ended up like those people I fucking despise. The ones that people would dump me as a friend to go hang out with them. But you know what fuck it. It was a great friendship while it lasted. But in the end I guess you got the person you really wanted right?
I feel better now.
I've shed my tears
and I think maybe I can move on from this.
Only a stepping stone.
But if this person did come back...
who knows?
Maybe I would change my mind
and we could go back to how things used to be
Maybe things have changed too much
and we can never go back.
Maybe I'm just fucking retarded
and am too much of an optimist
Or maybe too much of a pessimist
to see whats right in front of me?
fuck it.
who knows?
jamie: and continue on our own journey and look foward to others or possible old friends
I refuse to accept that. How can that be? how can someone just let go like that. as if nothing had ever really occured. did they fake the feelings they had? were they never really felt? thinking of this only raises more questions in my head. Was I not worthy of such a great friendship? not that that is my one and only great friendship. I have had many and I am glad that I have. But that one specific friendship meant the world to me. and for it to decay over a fucking girl. is fucking ludicrous. I'm sorry but by no means is she more valuable than me. I think I, myself, am more valuable than that. But one mans trash is another mans treasure right? Am I so wrong? what the fuck maybe I'm better than this fucking friendship. Maybe you're too childish. Maybe I've got things backwards. Maybe you were right and I am the one at fault. But then talking shit about me to mutual friends doesn't make it seem like you were right. You made it seem as if I always had to know what you two were doing. I admit I felt kind of left out but I got over it and I was like fuck it. And in the end I really didnt give a shit what you two were doing. Not a fucking shit. so for you to talk shit was meaning less and only made me laugh cause you ended up like those people I fucking despise. The ones that people would dump me as a friend to go hang out with them. But you know what fuck it. It was a great friendship while it lasted. But in the end I guess you got the person you really wanted right?
I feel better now.
I've shed my tears
and I think maybe I can move on from this.
Only a stepping stone.
But if this person did come back...
who knows?
Maybe I would change my mind
and we could go back to how things used to be
Maybe things have changed too much
and we can never go back.
Maybe I'm just fucking retarded
and am too much of an optimist
Or maybe too much of a pessimist
to see whats right in front of me?
fuck it.
who knows?