he tried to steal our joy
The devil is only here to lie, cheat and destroy!! He tried to bring chaos to our house last night, but NO, I rebuke him in the name of Jesus!!
Let me first say.....GOOD MORNING!!! LOVE YA ALL!! :)
Now, ok, last week my brother graduated. My heart was full of joy and pride for my lil brother, I mean, he broke the chains!! What I mean by that is....he is the first to graduate in our immediate family. My mom and dad never finished, neither did my brother and I. So now here is noel, walking on that stage and receiving his diploma. I told him.."Mijo you broke those chains in our family!! From now on...every one of our kids will be walking that stage and graduating..and going to college, I claim it!!" I told him how proud I was of him and that he is going to reach so high for the stars, and that he can make all his dreams come true. I told him that I love him so much....I talked to him as if he was still my lil baby boy. hehe! Goodness I love that kid so much!!! My poopies!! Uhh yeah...but anyway.
So, my dad bought him this new system....I think it's a 360? It's this white weird looking thing...eh, I dunno. I just know it cost like 400 and some or so. So that was part of his graduation gift.
Fast forward to last night. My brother, 2 cousins and I go to our champion of faith class (noel, cousin vinny and I are in our last one!! YESS!!), and just have an amazing discussion. I LOVE those classes, I mean, just LOVE them. We learn so much, ya know? So yeah...we went, had a great time and then went back home. Well my cousin cindy decides to go to polly's pie, so only some of us go and the boys stay home. We come back home, I go to my room so that I can study a little and think on what went on in class.
Then I hear cindy calling me, saying that the boys got caught by the police or whatever. It's already 10:30 at night. So there I go running out the door to follow her to the back where the elementary school is at. It was dark, we couldn't see anything, but then lexy (my cute lil cousin) sees all three boys (my brother noel and my 2 cousins vinny and andy) sitting on the curb. I dunno, but I found it a little silly and giggled because my brother has NEVER gotten in trouble....well, none of them really. Oh yeah and vinnvys mom came down from her house too, and oh man! It was hilarious because right as she went up to him she started reprimanding him and telling him how he should listen and not be out so late!! LOL.
Basically, they weren't in trouble but that a week ago there were some skaters in there at night that vandalized the school pretty bad. So I guess the neigbbors are on watch and called the cops on my cousins. They shouldn't have been ridin' the boards out there that late anyway, though!! But yeah...the cop wasn't mad, he just said for them to be careful and not to be out there so late.
No biggie, right? HAHAHA, WRONG!! So my dad somehow gets wind of this and man oh man. He makes it this huge humungus ordeal and starts yelling...bla bla bla. I mean, I'm feeling pretty bad and embarrassed cause now my cousins live with us and I didn't want them to be gettin' in trouble ya know. I'm used to my dad, but they probably aren't. So yeah....he was getting pretty bad. I had to take a deep breath and try to be the peacemaker. Dad wasn't having it. He just kept putting my brother down....I was getting mad, but I kept my cool. See, my dad is different....he has a different mentality, and sometimes it's not the right kind! He thinks by yelling and putting us down and calling us names...is going to straighten us out or whatever. IT'S NOT!! You gotta speak LIFE to your kids...not DEATH. Ya know? He made such a huge fuss over nothing, really. My brother is NOT a bad kid AT ALL. Dude, he's pretty awesome in fact. He doesn't drink, do drugs...isn't out there having sex (I know cause I'm nosey like that!!), he isn't out partying like it's 1999!! But he is getting good grades, he DID graduate, he is enrolled to attend college in sept, he is going to church, he never disrespects my father with his words. He's a freaken good kid, man. He's got dreams, goals and aspirations. Gr!
But, what I wanted to say is.....he wants the 360 back. He is taking away what he bought my brother becase (in his words), "You are ungrateful by your actions!!" or whatever. I mean, my brothers face went down....eeeeeeeeeeeeeerrm way down. I felt horrible inside. I knew this hurt him tremendously. Not the fact that it's even about the system, but that he would be such a two face indian giver and take it back. I told my brother to just give it to him and that my mom and I will get him one so that my dad won't always have to throw in his face how he bought him the system. *sigh*
So after he finally took the system....my brother layed down there next to me. It was silent. I was hurting for him inside because I could feel his pain. I asked him, "are you ok mijo? Are you crying?" My brother is very...how can I say it? He doesn't like to show weakness, he doesn't ever cry. Like he tries to be "tough". Sometimes I hate that, because it IS ok to cry...SOMETIMES. I guess my father really hurt him because he said, "No I'm not....and what does it matter if I am....can't I have some space." Oh man, that killed me horribly inside. Then I started to cry like a baby and I said, "Noel don't cry, please mijo, it hurts me so much to know that you are crying." LOL. So then he says, "What!? Why are you crying...awhhhh kika...it's ok gordita..don't cry." So I said..."Noel, please don't let his words discourage you...you're a good kid, don't worry mijo."
So I got up and I told him that I would go sleep with mamma so that I could give him his space. As I walked out he said, "You understand right?", I responded, "Of course I do poopoo, goodnight, I love you, God bless you."
I know, I probably baby my brother too much. He is already going to be 18....LOL. So you can imagine. I think he gets tired of me being so protective...but I can't help it, he's my lil baby brother. *sigh* I wanted to get up and go hurt my dad with my words...but I realized it's not even him. Something is making him be so bitter...that with any little problem, he takes out ALL his anger. It's sad. The enemy is using him big time to try to destroy our family...BUT NO!! I CANCEL IT! I Rebuke him with every part of my being....I stomp on him and laugh at him because in the end the Lord is going to have victory. We will be a priesthood family...a Godly family, and I KNOW for a fact that my father is going to change and be serving the Lord. I can't give up, nomatter how much I want to. I just can't. After all, it's my daddy.
So that's what happened.....but I prayed. I layed down with my mommy and prayed with her.....I wrapped my arm around her belly and felt her trembling from her cries. Ahhhh man, that killed me to and then I started crying silently. A mothers pain, a mothers tears. She was crying out to God to please help her husband...and I know that the Lord will honor that and listen to her cries.
We must make the change in ourselves first though, so we can be examples.
*sigh* so that's all....I love you guys. *xoxo*
I know that everything will be alright....
Let me first say.....GOOD MORNING!!! LOVE YA ALL!! :)
Now, ok, last week my brother graduated. My heart was full of joy and pride for my lil brother, I mean, he broke the chains!! What I mean by that is....he is the first to graduate in our immediate family. My mom and dad never finished, neither did my brother and I. So now here is noel, walking on that stage and receiving his diploma. I told him.."Mijo you broke those chains in our family!! From now on...every one of our kids will be walking that stage and graduating..and going to college, I claim it!!" I told him how proud I was of him and that he is going to reach so high for the stars, and that he can make all his dreams come true. I told him that I love him so much....I talked to him as if he was still my lil baby boy. hehe! Goodness I love that kid so much!!! My poopies!! Uhh yeah...but anyway.
So, my dad bought him this new system....I think it's a 360? It's this white weird looking thing...eh, I dunno. I just know it cost like 400 and some or so. So that was part of his graduation gift.
Fast forward to last night. My brother, 2 cousins and I go to our champion of faith class (noel, cousin vinny and I are in our last one!! YESS!!), and just have an amazing discussion. I LOVE those classes, I mean, just LOVE them. We learn so much, ya know? So yeah...we went, had a great time and then went back home. Well my cousin cindy decides to go to polly's pie, so only some of us go and the boys stay home. We come back home, I go to my room so that I can study a little and think on what went on in class.
Then I hear cindy calling me, saying that the boys got caught by the police or whatever. It's already 10:30 at night. So there I go running out the door to follow her to the back where the elementary school is at. It was dark, we couldn't see anything, but then lexy (my cute lil cousin) sees all three boys (my brother noel and my 2 cousins vinny and andy) sitting on the curb. I dunno, but I found it a little silly and giggled because my brother has NEVER gotten in trouble....well, none of them really. Oh yeah and vinnvys mom came down from her house too, and oh man! It was hilarious because right as she went up to him she started reprimanding him and telling him how he should listen and not be out so late!! LOL.
Basically, they weren't in trouble but that a week ago there were some skaters in there at night that vandalized the school pretty bad. So I guess the neigbbors are on watch and called the cops on my cousins. They shouldn't have been ridin' the boards out there that late anyway, though!! But yeah...the cop wasn't mad, he just said for them to be careful and not to be out there so late.
No biggie, right? HAHAHA, WRONG!! So my dad somehow gets wind of this and man oh man. He makes it this huge humungus ordeal and starts yelling...bla bla bla. I mean, I'm feeling pretty bad and embarrassed cause now my cousins live with us and I didn't want them to be gettin' in trouble ya know. I'm used to my dad, but they probably aren't. So yeah....he was getting pretty bad. I had to take a deep breath and try to be the peacemaker. Dad wasn't having it. He just kept putting my brother down....I was getting mad, but I kept my cool. See, my dad is different....he has a different mentality, and sometimes it's not the right kind! He thinks by yelling and putting us down and calling us names...is going to straighten us out or whatever. IT'S NOT!! You gotta speak LIFE to your kids...not DEATH. Ya know? He made such a huge fuss over nothing, really. My brother is NOT a bad kid AT ALL. Dude, he's pretty awesome in fact. He doesn't drink, do drugs...isn't out there having sex (I know cause I'm nosey like that!!), he isn't out partying like it's 1999!! But he is getting good grades, he DID graduate, he is enrolled to attend college in sept, he is going to church, he never disrespects my father with his words. He's a freaken good kid, man. He's got dreams, goals and aspirations. Gr!
But, what I wanted to say is.....he wants the 360 back. He is taking away what he bought my brother becase (in his words), "You are ungrateful by your actions!!" or whatever. I mean, my brothers face went down....eeeeeeeeeeeeeerrm way down. I felt horrible inside. I knew this hurt him tremendously. Not the fact that it's even about the system, but that he would be such a two face indian giver and take it back. I told my brother to just give it to him and that my mom and I will get him one so that my dad won't always have to throw in his face how he bought him the system. *sigh*
So after he finally took the system....my brother layed down there next to me. It was silent. I was hurting for him inside because I could feel his pain. I asked him, "are you ok mijo? Are you crying?" My brother is very...how can I say it? He doesn't like to show weakness, he doesn't ever cry. Like he tries to be "tough". Sometimes I hate that, because it IS ok to cry...SOMETIMES. I guess my father really hurt him because he said, "No I'm not....and what does it matter if I am....can't I have some space." Oh man, that killed me horribly inside. Then I started to cry like a baby and I said, "Noel don't cry, please mijo, it hurts me so much to know that you are crying." LOL. So then he says, "What!? Why are you crying...awhhhh kika...it's ok gordita..don't cry." So I said..."Noel, please don't let his words discourage you...you're a good kid, don't worry mijo."
So I got up and I told him that I would go sleep with mamma so that I could give him his space. As I walked out he said, "You understand right?", I responded, "Of course I do poopoo, goodnight, I love you, God bless you."
I know, I probably baby my brother too much. He is already going to be 18....LOL. So you can imagine. I think he gets tired of me being so protective...but I can't help it, he's my lil baby brother. *sigh* I wanted to get up and go hurt my dad with my words...but I realized it's not even him. Something is making him be so bitter...that with any little problem, he takes out ALL his anger. It's sad. The enemy is using him big time to try to destroy our family...BUT NO!! I CANCEL IT! I Rebuke him with every part of my being....I stomp on him and laugh at him because in the end the Lord is going to have victory. We will be a priesthood family...a Godly family, and I KNOW for a fact that my father is going to change and be serving the Lord. I can't give up, nomatter how much I want to. I just can't. After all, it's my daddy.
So that's what happened.....but I prayed. I layed down with my mommy and prayed with her.....I wrapped my arm around her belly and felt her trembling from her cries. Ahhhh man, that killed me to and then I started crying silently. A mothers pain, a mothers tears. She was crying out to God to please help her husband...and I know that the Lord will honor that and listen to her cries.
We must make the change in ourselves first though, so we can be examples.
*sigh* so that's all....I love you guys. *xoxo*
I know that everything will be alright....