Hey! I miss you all....
I feel like a load has been lifted from my shoulders. The last couple of weeks were extremely stressful due to a monitoring / audit that we were getting ready for here at the office. I had time to do NOTHING else but work, which is how it's supposed to be but still! So, we finally had the monitoring this thursday and everything pretty much went well on our end of things. See how smooth things will be when you have God on your side and always make Him first, even in your business endeavors? I love it here, because before we go on ahead with things we always take it up with God and pray about it. Which is what we did on thursday, we were nervous but at the same time okay because we knew that we all got together, prayed and left everything in God's hands. Remember, God will never put us to shame when we are serving Him. It was so stressful though, I mean, we were all already up to here *swipes forehead* with having to deal with each and every client file. I think we even got to eachother. I know that God was definitely working with me during those weeks, I mean, I totally came out a stronger and more humble person. Sometimes I can be the kind of person that does NOT like to be told what to do or feel any less than anyone else. I can be lazy too. Well, God revealed some things that needed to be cleansed, concerning my character. He showed me how ugly it is to get offended so easily when someone else is telling me what to do, and it's not like they're telling me in such a mean way ya know. I experience this with paulina, who happens to be one of my great friends. Ultimately we're supposed to be working as a team here, together, as one, to make this place a better environment and working area. Also to get the job done. So yeah, God totally put the breaks on those ugly flaws of mine that were wanting to crack through. The beautiful thing is that I RECOGNIZED them and I admit to them and am willing to change them, but only with the help of God. I realize that He has put certain people in my life for a reason, and put me in certain places for a reason as well. He is shaping me, molding my character into one that He deems as Christ like, and that is what I want. I want to exude love, I want people to smelllllll the compassion in me, I want them to see me and think, "wow, what IS it about HER??" But see, it's not even about me. I want them to see CHRIST in me, that I have God in my life, who is the total epitome of love. I want to be a servant. We are here to serve, we aren't here for ourselves, we're here to help others. That's what God wants, for us to bring the light to the darkness. I have to remember that, remind myself constantly. Why am I here?? Ya know? Sometimes the flesh wants to take over and act nasty, but that's when the Holy Spirit comes and convicts you...and you're like, "Ahhhhh yes yes yes, I know, I'm sorry!!" Instantly, I am reminded, "Who are you in Christ? Can people see Christ in you? Are you acting like you have Christ in you?" I am by no means saying that I am or want to be perfect, because we ALLLLL know that noone is or can ever be perfect. Only God is. But I am saying that I want to represent Christ to the fullest. That's my passion. I love my Jesus with every beat of my heart, and all I wanna do is make Him proud. He knows my heart to the very depths, and He knows that He is the very core of my corazon, my life. :)
So yeah, things are awesome now. I feel really...I dunno, happy and refreshed today. Pretty funny considering that alot of changes have been going on at my house. Guess how many people are living there now? And dude, we do NOT have a big house at all, I actually call it the "doll house". hehe. Silly huh? Well yeah, 9 people are now living there. When it is only supposed to be, my papi, my mama, my brother and I, oh and my aunt moved in about 5 months ago. She sleeps in the living room. So now my cousin cindy and her 3 kids are squeezed in. I always tell my mom that we should name our house, "the shelter". I mean, in the beginning I was pretty infuriated when my aunt moved in, because to be honest, she's a special one. Now, cindy and the kids, I absolutely LOVE them. Well, the lil one is a little bit off the crocker, but hey, I can deal....I think. I dunno. It's like one huge big happy family now, I guess. They finally got settled in over the weekend. We did some major cleaning in the house. It felt good. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so rejuvenated. K, so, lemme run down how packed it is now. Lulu (cindy) and the kids have now taken over my brothers room. Momma and dadda are in the middle room. My brother and I are in the small back room (which was MY room). Aunt diana is in the living room. Everything is organized but still, there is so much now in the house!! The food is totally overflowing now. LOL. Everybody loves it because my mom is ALWAYS cooking, I mean now that she is off for the summer, it's gonna be on and popping with the food.
I think there is a reason behind all of this though. I know that down along the road, God is going to bless my parents with a beautiful home of their own. Cause if you don't know yet, we have been renting the same house for over 20 years. Yeah, close your mouth now. hehe. So, I'm clinging on to the positive side of things. The kids don't have that "family" figure, ya know? Maybe being with us, they will have a taste of what it's like and hopefully implement it when they move on to their home. They don't have their daddy. Cindy is always working and they are left unattended. Now that they are with us, shoot, there will always be somebody home and definitely a father figure with my daddy! I just want them to be happy and filled with love. Now lexy, cindy and I can go work out together! Now I can make sure they get to church!! Now I can take lexy to youth with me!! I love my lil baby, I love them all so very much, my heart can pop cause it's so full of love for 'em! ;)
Only problem is my aunt, sometimes. She bugs me. She butts into everything, and when she does it to me, I just get this burning sensation through my body. I have to literally ask God to please keep my mouth shut. I was about to blow it this weekend with her. But you know what? God is so powerful, I tell ya. Cause the next moment I felt my heart melt, I went to her and gave her a hug and said, "Aunt diana I love you, I'm sorry if I'm acting mean..." I mean, after feeling this horrible anger with her....I go ahead and do that. Now that's God people!! Cause I could never do that before, I'd still be holding a grudge. He's weakening me up!! No seriously, He is just making me a better person, I think. I guess you can say that I am being the "bigger person", and lemme tell ya, it's so hard!!!!
But yeah, I've been going to the restroom alot. I think those pills do that to you. But it's a good thing!!! Cause now everything is just going through me and I can feel a difference in my body. I feel like I eat so much less than what I did before. I get full quicker. Only thing is, I'm a bad girl on the weekends!!! I need to watch it. I haven't even weighed myself. Oh Lord, I'm skuuurrred, well not really but still. I really do feel like I've lost some inches, cause some clothes that didn't fit before are fitting me better now. I love it!! :D
So how are you guys doing? I feel so out of the loop, I'm sorry. I really do want to update often, and I will start to again, it's just that I was really really busy. Oh yeah, and I don't have internet at home right now cause something is wrong with the dern DSL! GR!
K, gotta go. Love ya, God belss!
So yeah, things are awesome now. I feel really...I dunno, happy and refreshed today. Pretty funny considering that alot of changes have been going on at my house. Guess how many people are living there now? And dude, we do NOT have a big house at all, I actually call it the "doll house". hehe. Silly huh? Well yeah, 9 people are now living there. When it is only supposed to be, my papi, my mama, my brother and I, oh and my aunt moved in about 5 months ago. She sleeps in the living room. So now my cousin cindy and her 3 kids are squeezed in. I always tell my mom that we should name our house, "the shelter". I mean, in the beginning I was pretty infuriated when my aunt moved in, because to be honest, she's a special one. Now, cindy and the kids, I absolutely LOVE them. Well, the lil one is a little bit off the crocker, but hey, I can deal....I think. I dunno. It's like one huge big happy family now, I guess. They finally got settled in over the weekend. We did some major cleaning in the house. It felt good. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so rejuvenated. K, so, lemme run down how packed it is now. Lulu (cindy) and the kids have now taken over my brothers room. Momma and dadda are in the middle room. My brother and I are in the small back room (which was MY room). Aunt diana is in the living room. Everything is organized but still, there is so much now in the house!! The food is totally overflowing now. LOL. Everybody loves it because my mom is ALWAYS cooking, I mean now that she is off for the summer, it's gonna be on and popping with the food.
I think there is a reason behind all of this though. I know that down along the road, God is going to bless my parents with a beautiful home of their own. Cause if you don't know yet, we have been renting the same house for over 20 years. Yeah, close your mouth now. hehe. So, I'm clinging on to the positive side of things. The kids don't have that "family" figure, ya know? Maybe being with us, they will have a taste of what it's like and hopefully implement it when they move on to their home. They don't have their daddy. Cindy is always working and they are left unattended. Now that they are with us, shoot, there will always be somebody home and definitely a father figure with my daddy! I just want them to be happy and filled with love. Now lexy, cindy and I can go work out together! Now I can make sure they get to church!! Now I can take lexy to youth with me!! I love my lil baby, I love them all so very much, my heart can pop cause it's so full of love for 'em! ;)
Only problem is my aunt, sometimes. She bugs me. She butts into everything, and when she does it to me, I just get this burning sensation through my body. I have to literally ask God to please keep my mouth shut. I was about to blow it this weekend with her. But you know what? God is so powerful, I tell ya. Cause the next moment I felt my heart melt, I went to her and gave her a hug and said, "Aunt diana I love you, I'm sorry if I'm acting mean..." I mean, after feeling this horrible anger with her....I go ahead and do that. Now that's God people!! Cause I could never do that before, I'd still be holding a grudge. He's weakening me up!! No seriously, He is just making me a better person, I think. I guess you can say that I am being the "bigger person", and lemme tell ya, it's so hard!!!!
But yeah, I've been going to the restroom alot. I think those pills do that to you. But it's a good thing!!! Cause now everything is just going through me and I can feel a difference in my body. I feel like I eat so much less than what I did before. I get full quicker. Only thing is, I'm a bad girl on the weekends!!! I need to watch it. I haven't even weighed myself. Oh Lord, I'm skuuurrred, well not really but still. I really do feel like I've lost some inches, cause some clothes that didn't fit before are fitting me better now. I love it!! :D
So how are you guys doing? I feel so out of the loop, I'm sorry. I really do want to update often, and I will start to again, it's just that I was really really busy. Oh yeah, and I don't have internet at home right now cause something is wrong with the dern DSL! GR!
K, gotta go. Love ya, God belss!