JUST ALONE COLD AND USED
so so so, cast party was last night, didnt think id ever see focus dancing like that. whoa, shocked me. but i must of burned like 600 calories last night woo, everbodys so amazing i love them all. but there are a select few... yea we all know who. ::sigh:: everybody in drama got sick and like i dont know if its in my head but as soon as i left i started feeling really shitty. and i was in the shower and i usually feel really good when i get out like relle awake and stuff & i felt so horribly weak its not even funny. im scared ama wake up tomorrow and like pass out. lOl eh i will survive. i saw gabe last night and i cried coz i love him sooo much and i didnt know when i was gonna see him again. lol i was ridiculousy emotional, but i miss him so much sometimes. being in drama & stuff has made me meet some relle amazing people and im soo thankful <333
ive been so emo in my thinking for the past couple weeks i guess its everything thats been going on and shit, i wish i culd brush so much off becoz then my life would be so much easier but i cant let go when i need to, which makes the burden on my shoulders 10x;s heavier than it shuld be. so it sucks for me, if i could just learn to let go and not be so emotional all the time id be a much more happier person than i am now. it just really sucks sometimes thats all.
i just wanna take this time, to thank all of the friends who have been there for me to help me cope even tho im a total nut sometimes and i go crazy bitchy and ive been so depressed over stupid shit thanks for having my back and giving me your love, you all know who you are. and im so grateful for you coz i dont know how sane id be without any of you.
xOxO
ive been so emo in my thinking for the past couple weeks i guess its everything thats been going on and shit, i wish i culd brush so much off becoz then my life would be so much easier but i cant let go when i need to, which makes the burden on my shoulders 10x;s heavier than it shuld be. so it sucks for me, if i could just learn to let go and not be so emotional all the time id be a much more happier person than i am now. it just really sucks sometimes thats all.
i just wanna take this time, to thank all of the friends who have been there for me to help me cope even tho im a total nut sometimes and i go crazy bitchy and ive been so depressed over stupid shit thanks for having my back and giving me your love, you all know who you are. and im so grateful for you coz i dont know how sane id be without any of you.
xOxO