Jul 30, 2005 21:17
so i know i gave a way too long vent about jack this morning but i still need to get stuff off my mind....
alright everyone, i think i am confused now, more than ever. he says he wants to be just friends and as soon as i get used to the idea of being "just friends" he says something that makes me think totally different. i dont understand why he has to be so fucking concerned with the future. let the future take care of itself, enjoy the moment now. i think he is too caught up in the whole title of what we are. who cares what we call ourselves. we have an amazing time hanging out, we have great chemistry and, mmm, he is a good kisser. why cant we enjoy each other, hang out, maybe throw a makeout in there from time to time and just let the future and all this title crap work itself out. he is so caught up in "just FRIENDS" that he is missing out on the good times. at least i am. i cant think, i cant sleep.
he knows where i stand, he knows that i am willing to be more than FRIENDS so the ball is in his court. when he gets things figured out, he knows where to reach me. i hope it doesnt take too long because i am not a very patient person.