DrOwNiNg iN tEaRs.....
I hate my life right now....the only good thing about it is that i'm alive and healthy.....and i don't even think that's true cuz right now i don't feel alive and i certainly don't feel healthy. I don't know what to do......my life is just a big mess right now. I really need 2 talk 2 Mark but he's not answering he's phone and he's not online. He's prolly @ his mom's........more than likely. N e wayz...I felt like crying the entire day 2day. I walked around aimlessly 2 each of my classes. Didn't really join the conversation @ lunch and sat around w/ the theatre people during athletics. I had 2 ride the bus home 2day which was weird cuz my dad usually picks me up after school. 2day was the first day i got out @ 3:30 on the dot. I usually have 2 stay after school 4 volleyball practice and play practice. When i got home i was REALLY tired....i tried 2 go 2 sleep but my dad woke me up when he called 2 ask me what i wanted 2 eat. We had Taco Bell. Then after that i tried 2 go 2 sleep again, i failed. I cleaned up the kitchen instead. 2morrow i have 2 clean up the rest of the house. On Labor Day weekend Mark and i are supposed 2 go 2 the mall. I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope we go cuz i haven't seen him in a LONG time and i REALLY REALLY REALLY need 2 see him. I just wanna give him a HUGE hug and tell him that i love him. I think right now he needs it. *SiGh* I'm tired........man yesterday i wanted 2 ring Nicky Mitchell's neck!! I HATE THAT KID!! For absolutely no reason he took a fork and let the air out of poor Josh Horner's bike tires AND cracked his helmet. So Josh was stuck up @ the school without a ride all because of that ASSHOLE Nicky!!! GRRRR!!!! NICKY DIDN'T EVEN GET IN TROUBLE!!! Which ticked me off even more cuz he has NO right 2 go around doing shit like that. Wow..........i have the nicest dad in the world.....he just walked in the door with a king size peanut butter Twix, a Big Red, and some peanuts 4 me :D What a guy lol. Well i think i'm gonna go enjoy my junk food and try 2 call Mark again. I'll more than likely update 2morrow. Until then....l8r days!