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I havent updated in a long time. i was gone thursday, tired friday, and gone saturday. sheesh. well im only gonna say what i want.
Ah im in a chat room with david and his "juggalos" haha gay im totally getting into it with them about gays and bisexuals. what dumbasses. stupid idiots. im the only one in the whole chat who likes gays. what the hell? this is a battle! the only thing i agree with them on is the whole no god thing. i think i just got called a dumbass...o well
So thursday i dunno. friday i got up and stuff. and got ready. and then i went to school. and... i really dont remember what happened when i got there.
So in french we had to sit in the front... er but patrick gave me his sex ring. haha yessss. and it said bananas on my desk and i was writing about banana, AND had the banana song stuck in my head. so.
me: bananas! they are EVERYWHERE! jesus. i cant get away from bananas!!
(we look behind us at the guys)
me: thats not what i ment!
And then stepfanie was on the ground laughing. haha we had a test too. god...i dunno about that. i studied but i didnt remmeber any of it.
In math...we sat in rows. gaaaay. i sat by chelsie and corey.and we had groups too. i was with adam, chris and evan. boring. ryan was looking through my stuff. idiot.
Then going to lunch jake harbolt shoved me and so i pushed him really hard and he caught me and then i was talking with chelsie and we were both at the same time like "i have terets" haha
Then in lunch...um. oh yes. we talked with tj and cassie. and then we all walked katie to math. but she was with brittany too. and me and cassie and tiffany were making fun of the way tj wlks. haha and then tj said bye to katie and she just went in. and my and cassie where just kinda standing there waiting to say bye... so we just left. and me and cassie and tj got in a stick war! haha and then we got food and we deserted tj and went somewhere. i kinda forgot where.
Then i went to gym and me and chelsie were screaming tee rets. haha funny funny. then we went out on the soccer feild. and i talked with chelsie. i found a lady bug! and then we walked on the track and i found one in chelsies hair. and then i said something and made chelsie fall on the ground laughing. 2 in one day. woohoo then ms sharron got all pissy at us so we went on the field. and tj was on the track with his class and i talked to him. then i stood there and pretended to participate. then we went and played tennis. and the damn wind! actually i just stood there with megan and chelsie nad bianca talking.
Then i walked with chelsie to her class and jumped on ryan. then talked to katie and went to class. i worked on my mask. o my god i cant do it! i worked on the eys and im having so may problems. i need help.and so i went oustide and sanded my plate. i inhailed some of it. it hurt. then katie came out to talk to me and i wish she coulda stayed. she left her chapstick.so i went inside then talked with filip and david and sarah. and cleaned everything. david has such pretty eyes! im so jealous.
After school i got tjs jacket and went outsie with katie and tiffany and talked with stepfanie and then katie left and me and tiffany went inside and found todd and tj and gave him his bloddy jacket. and cole was there. joy. and then tiffany left and tj threw a poster on me. and i watched them. they're funny to just watch. and then todds bus came so we got on.
His whole bus is like pot heads. haha and we got off and went to the bus station and waited. i got my change from my backpack and it had all this chocolate on it. haha ew and then we got on and this WEIRD guy with a scottish hat and a wolf shirt was reading the newspaper was commenting on everything. and like saying all these fortune cookie things. it was so funny. and we got off and i saw vyvy in subway! haha and then todd gave me a leaf. haha
And we couldnt decide what to see. we were gonna see a kung fu movie but it was R. so we got tickets for robots. haha it was sooo dead. we were seriously the only ones there. and this other family. so we sat on the bench for a long time and talked. and played with the leaf. haha then we went in and watched the darn thing. and a star wars preview came on and todd got this funny voice and said "im so getting that when it comes out. star wars is so cool" haha. then we waited till eveyone left and these kids were dancing. haha but they left. and ahahah chyes.
Then i called my mom and we waited outside. and all these old people where there. we took apart the leaf too. and he held my hand. descretly. and my mom came and they talked about chai tea. haha ice breaker. then we passed his house 2 times. haha silly mothers.. and then i got out and we didnt really know what to do. cuz my mommy cant know we are going out. so i just hugged him. and then she interrigated me about him. and i totally kept it cool! ok i laughed but she believed me.
Then we got mcdonalds and i came home and she went out with susie and i got the worst effing headache. and then lance calls me. and i had tried so many times that day to get him to talk to me. and he calls and says he isnt just taking spencers side, he just doesnt want to talk to me. in a mean voice. and i still dont understand why. he never explained. i hung up on him. that really hurt my feelings though. because me and him have been friends since 6th grade and he suddenly is just giving up to be friends with spencer. i dont see why he cant be friends with both of us. and if he doesnt wanna, then why cant he at least tell me why? im so tired of trying to make friendships work and then have it blow up in my face.
So that put me in such a bad mood. and i was exausted. so i talked to brandon and david. okay so me and brandon are gonna make a lemonade stand! haha and pay mexican kids 1% of the profits. haha i love him. i went to bed at 4:21.
Then i got up saturday around 1:22 and i talked to todd and got ready and then we went to brennas and we saw her new house. its so nice. the backyard is huge. its in beaverton. then we went home and i was all lazy. so i packed and burned more damn cds for my dad.
Then he picked me up and we went to target and exchanged my moms present and i got her earings and some lotion stuff. then we went to the mall and i looked for new shoes. but they didnt have my size so we have to wait till tuesday. then we went to jc pennys and i got a new shirt. its lovely. and chris stone called me.... yeah haha. then we went and got burger king.
When we got home i was all hyper and i watched whos line is it anyway. it was a really funny one. then i watched a lot more tv and then went in the bed and watched fresh prince but fell asleep. damn. and i could not wake up.
I finally did around 1 i think. and i got ready and we had to go find an art gallery.so we get downtown and we cant find one. so we ask someone and fiiinally find one and i am so pressed for time cuz my dad has work. and this cute little dog there kept distracting me. and i finished really fast and we left. we were going 70 the whole way home. even in the condos we were going like 30 in a 5-10 mph thing. haha and i got home and like.. fell on the stairs/codys head. haha
And then i was online for a while and my mom came home and brought me a mcflury and then she used the computer so i watched tv and then took a shower. and i talked to chris. i hadnt talked to him in sooooo long. he got second place in nationals. i am so proud. and then i got ready for bed.
Brandon is my best friend! we decided.
This song brings back sooo many memories. im getting that weird nervousy excited feeling. it kinda hurts. jesus i havent herd it in so long. i dont think i let myself after jake. i was gonna call him tonight but i didnt have time.
I made up with nicole virnig. i apoligized for being bitchy to her and stuff and now we are talking. so all is good.
Things are going really good with my family. my brother is getting married, my sister is moving into a new house, my moms best friend just moved back to oregon after 4 years, my dad...well my dad i dunno. but im hoping things will look up for him. i want him to start dating again. as weird as that is..i think id be good for him. and for me. im just kinda...i dunno. figuring things out i guess. trying to make things right with people.
I got my grades today. i did fine. a's and b's. nothin special.
Tomorrow im leaving school early for an apopintment. it started out stong, and ended.... postivie, but not postive enough,
So, a dear dear friend gave up something for me. and i should probly do the same. a favor in return, right? but tonight, i feel the need to rebel and do what i please. but if they really ment something to me, i would stop. although jake ment something to me, and i didnt stop for him. but this is kinda different. im not sure.
I forgot to put my clothes in the dryer and its not 1:05. so i dunno how im gonna get away with it... claim a sleepless night. i have to pee.
Gonna be a long week....
Au Revoir