In the end, today didn't matter

[alluringxyou]

Everybody is so fake. People never say what they really mean, think, for feel. Everybody lives under a shield of lies and falsehoods. I hate it. It's so old and drawn out, nothing is new or fresh out of peoples mouth and I’m a prime example of that. It makes me sick, I know nothing is true that's shoved in my face, it all seems so vague and distorted.

we wear our evil eyes
and laugh with tainted lip
drawn out on canvas we spoil
our stains crease young spirits

Today I am not myself. How can you be something you don't know.
I want to talk to somebody that hears what I don't say and see my next move. I want to feel connected to somebody real and laugh till time freezes.
What do I really want?