My Only One (Stand alone)
Title: My Only One
Author: alltimelow09876
Point of view: Alex
Pairing: Jalex
Rating: PG-13
A/N : I don't own these lovely boys, I promise this
is all fake, title goes to My Only One by All Time Low.
I'm laying in bed not quite asleep but definitely not fully awake, it's around 2:20 in the morning, but it's not that unusual for me to be awake, my insomnia does that to me. I'm just about to fall asleep when i hear a knock at the door, at first I think I'm hearing things, so I ignore it, but then I hear it again, much louder this time. I throw off the covers and stumble downstairs. I look out the peep hole and see a familiar face staring back at me. What the fuck is Jack doing here and why is he crying. I think to myself. I open the door and the next thing I know Jack was throwing himself into my arms, clutching at my chest sobbing. I don't really know what to do so I just hold him and rub small circles on his back desperately trying to calm him down. I close the door with my door and whisper to Jack to come up stairs. Jack and I half walk half stumble up the stairs to my bedroom. I close the door behind us and lead him to the bed. He gets into the bed, I crawl in next to him, pull the covers over us and hug him tight.
"Jack please tell me what's going on." I say quietly
"I can't do it anymore Lex." he whispers
"Can't do what anymore baby?"
"I can't be here anymore, being alive just isn't worth it anymore! Everyone hates me and I can't be with the one I love so what does it matter anymore!"
"Jack no! no one hates you, why would you think that!"
"... I don't know..." he says sheepishly
"Why can't you be with the person you love?"
"Because you don't love me Alex! I want to be with you, but you don't love me!" Jack says turning to face me.
and now I'm crying, jack just bared his sole to me and I'm the one crying. but what Jack doesn't understand is that I've loved him for as long as I can't remember and the fact that he think I don't love him and want to be with him hurts worse than anything. I'm staring at him like an idiot with tears streaming down my face. I know I have to say something before he leaves, but I don't know what to say.
"Jack.. I love you, with all my heart I love you, how could you ever think that I don't?"
"...but you don't love me the way i love you. I want to call you mine, show you off to the world as my boyfriend, but you don't want me like that...so I'm just going to shut up and go home now"
there is a million things going through my head all at once but the next thing I know I'm cupping Jack's cheeks in my hands and pressing our lips together. It's a quick kiss but it's definitely the best I've ever had. Granted it's not the first time Jack and I have kissed but it is the first time we aren't drunk or on stage putting on a show for all the kids who ship 'Jalex'. and now Jack is just staring at me and I don't know what he's thinking his face is completely blank.
"W-what now.." I ask
"Let me call you mine"
I nod and now Jack is grinning like the Cheshire cat. This time it's Jack who is the one to kiss me, and I swear I feel like my heart is going to explode. Jack pulls away a little bit, just far enough to break the kiss.
"Mine." he says
"Forever." I whisper