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dude...i cannnnnnnot deal with this place anymore. if its not one thing its another here and all i can think is that i want to stay locked in my room and not ever have to listen to this shit anymore. it was not my goal to get out of here in 6 months..but the more i have to deal with peoples shit the more i think..hmm 6 months may be 6 months too long. i cannot live with drug addicts anymore. i cannot deal with any of this any longer. the cursing and yelling at eachother. the backstabbing and the ignoring done by people you thought were your friends. how can anyone do that? thats not how real life works. or maybe it is. idk. i've done my best to try to kill myself for like..ten years. maybe a little less..maybe a little more. i don't even remember. its just too hard to keep track of who is mad at who or what is going on in whose life. i dont even watch this many tv shows. i just wish someone would get in here and fix us all so this wouldnt happen anymore. but life isnt like that. its just not. im afraid im going to have to break up a fight one of these days. or start one. like...now. i think its time to leave. to get off this computer and make sure someone doesnt get knocked out.