trying to stand
I have a new job, and am trying to have a new life. Unfortunately, it's still hard sometimes. I had a really good day and night last night and today...and am trying to stay this positive. I still have a few slips though, I started crying the other night and missed Jake horribly, which sucks because well, it sucks and I hate having absolutely no lack of control over that. I shouldn't care...and yeah. It's been 5 years, and 2.5 years of not being together/off and on. Is it really going to take me that long to get over someone everyone tells me isn't good enough for me? :( stupid heart.
Work went very well today. I'm working at www.cupslj.com and so am happy to say, I might be getting more snobby.
..er...:)
I'm exhausted, so this will be brief.
And really, now I'm feeling down again. Thinking about Jake makes me sad/depressed. I'm not even sure if it's him in and of himself making me sad, or just the sadness of loving and not being loved aka the idea of it depresses me as well as the actual emotion.
There go the tears again, time for a nap.
Work went very well today. I'm working at www.cupslj.com and so am happy to say, I might be getting more snobby.
..er...:)
I'm exhausted, so this will be brief.
And really, now I'm feeling down again. Thinking about Jake makes me sad/depressed. I'm not even sure if it's him in and of himself making me sad, or just the sadness of loving and not being loved aka the idea of it depresses me as well as the actual emotion.
There go the tears again, time for a nap.