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It's done.
3 days after the DUI fine was taken care of, Jake maintained his desire for a divorce and his lack of any emotion for me.
Lessons learned:
-Don't put yourself out there...don't do things above and beyond for someone who won't do them back.
-Don't fool myself: people who say they don't love me anymore, at some point or another...probably won't start. Even if it doesn't make sense to me.
-Don't let anyone move in with me who is being benefited by it.
-Don't have sex with someone who doesn't love me. It only adds to the illusion.
-Don't put anyone else before myself. In the long run, I'm the only person who will ultimately watch out for myself.
-Do be wary of things seemingly changing for the better out of nowhere.
-Do try and stop loving the person you swore you'd never stop. Think of all of the negative qualities and what you've been put through, at all times, whether your fault or not.
The last 6 months I've done nothing wrong. It's not my fault. It's not anything I have control over, so I need to let it go.
But...it's very hard and I'm afraid that doing so will jade me further.
-Do remember your friends, who told you these things when you didn't want to hear them.
Time to get my shit together.
3 days after the DUI fine was taken care of, Jake maintained his desire for a divorce and his lack of any emotion for me.
Lessons learned:
-Don't put yourself out there...don't do things above and beyond for someone who won't do them back.
-Don't fool myself: people who say they don't love me anymore, at some point or another...probably won't start. Even if it doesn't make sense to me.
-Don't let anyone move in with me who is being benefited by it.
-Don't have sex with someone who doesn't love me. It only adds to the illusion.
-Don't put anyone else before myself. In the long run, I'm the only person who will ultimately watch out for myself.
-Do be wary of things seemingly changing for the better out of nowhere.
-Do try and stop loving the person you swore you'd never stop. Think of all of the negative qualities and what you've been put through, at all times, whether your fault or not.
The last 6 months I've done nothing wrong. It's not my fault. It's not anything I have control over, so I need to let it go.
But...it's very hard and I'm afraid that doing so will jade me further.
-Do remember your friends, who told you these things when you didn't want to hear them.
Time to get my shit together.