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I'm listening to a playlist on random that I didn't make, and it just went from Goo Goo Dolls "Big Machine" straight to NIN "We're in this Together."
That said, I almost died on the freeway yesterday. Potential 6 car accident that luckily didn't happen due to the idiot in the next lane.
Work has been stressful, not because we're incredibly busy...but because we're not.
I was at work 6:30 am to 10 pm last night and had a catering order and had the health inspection the same day (which I did NOT know about, thanks San Bernardino County).
Jake...
Jake, Jake Jake.
I love him so incredibly much, and always have and blah blah blah...everyone knows this.
I know he needs time logically for himself...
It's just hard for me to not do my usual thing and lose interest if I see something I don't like.
He won't commit, and I know he loves me. But I also know he...doesn't want people to really know, and wants to figure things out.
But in my mind, if you love someone...really love someone...then...?
It doesn't make sense to me. But I'm trying. Garbage "Parade" just switched on.
Believing in nothing
Makes life so boring
So let's pray for something
To feel good in the morning
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The colour of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
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I'm fighting, I'm just hoping I can avoid being jaded.
That said, I almost died on the freeway yesterday. Potential 6 car accident that luckily didn't happen due to the idiot in the next lane.
Work has been stressful, not because we're incredibly busy...but because we're not.
I was at work 6:30 am to 10 pm last night and had a catering order and had the health inspection the same day (which I did NOT know about, thanks San Bernardino County).
Jake...
Jake, Jake Jake.
I love him so incredibly much, and always have and blah blah blah...everyone knows this.
I know he needs time logically for himself...
It's just hard for me to not do my usual thing and lose interest if I see something I don't like.
He won't commit, and I know he loves me. But I also know he...doesn't want people to really know, and wants to figure things out.
But in my mind, if you love someone...really love someone...then...?
It doesn't make sense to me. But I'm trying. Garbage "Parade" just switched on.
Believing in nothing
Makes life so boring
So let's pray for something
To feel good in the morning
As far as I can tell
It doesn't matter who you are
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
The colour of an eye
The glory of a sudden view
The baby in your arms
The smile he always shoots at you
If you can believe there's something worth fighting for
---------
I'm fighting, I'm just hoping I can avoid being jaded.