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we were at barnes and noble and i turned to noel and i asked, "do you feel alive?" i could see the other patrons in line respond silently to the question. they looked at me like it was a perverse question. or worse yet a silly question. i didn't. i woke up. ate something. had sensation. i even jerked off once or twice. but i gotta tell ya i felt as dead as dillinger. noel looked at me not too surprised by question and i wasn't too surprised by his answer. a little shake and "no." we sat and talked about our jobs because that's what people do. and we looked at fashion magazines and pointed out who we'd "do" because that's what people do. we decided to go shopping. can ya guess why?
we found something though. a little space disappearing like a shadow in the morning. it was exotic. and dangerous. if you really care i can take you. there were no cameras. but we were under suspicion. i saw a boy crying in a lobby and i wanted to tell him that whether he cries or not tomorrow will come. you can see better with your chin up.
we went to our studio and played our torrid hearts out because that's what WE do.
now i sit here. my brain is trained not to care but i plan to. i hope i cry. i hope someone sees and with a little luck my life will be ruined forever. i felt like throwing up at work so i did.
we found something though. a little space disappearing like a shadow in the morning. it was exotic. and dangerous. if you really care i can take you. there were no cameras. but we were under suspicion. i saw a boy crying in a lobby and i wanted to tell him that whether he cries or not tomorrow will come. you can see better with your chin up.
we went to our studio and played our torrid hearts out because that's what WE do.
now i sit here. my brain is trained not to care but i plan to. i hope i cry. i hope someone sees and with a little luck my life will be ruined forever. i felt like throwing up at work so i did.