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wow what a nother wonderful day with allison.....
woke up i smelled so bad hehe GROSE so i took a shower and was on my way to school! i saw ryan this morning! but of coarse something was wrong with one of us, it seems like we can not both be happy at the same time i swear. so i got pissed as usual. got some new kid today, sarah and i were a talking about him of coarse.
4/20
hossler was fun again because there was no one there again except mike mike maia rebecca and josh. quietness.....
lunch was dull><><
~i dont know what i want~i find myself telling me this everyday now. and its starting to scare me. i have so much stress. mostly school and my family. they expect so much FUCKING SHIT it makes me sick. if its not one thing its something else i screw up. i dont know whats best for me anymore, i dont know who really cares, i dont know shit. and im tired of it all. to much drama. i want to get so far away. from everyone. its like i have to let everyone go for a while, to get myself back together. because i can honestly admit i dont know myself anymore. i got some serious praying to do, just me and the big man lol. i just need some alone time. so sorry to everyone if i have been bitching to you and dont take it seriously because i dont mean it. everyone thinks im mad at them and it sucks. ok im done. night night sweet dreams!!! and i love yall.. happy 4/20 too
ok bye allisonrachel
woke up i smelled so bad hehe GROSE so i took a shower and was on my way to school! i saw ryan this morning! but of coarse something was wrong with one of us, it seems like we can not both be happy at the same time i swear. so i got pissed as usual. got some new kid today, sarah and i were a talking about him of coarse.
4/20
hossler was fun again because there was no one there again except mike mike maia rebecca and josh. quietness.....
lunch was dull><><
~i dont know what i want~i find myself telling me this everyday now. and its starting to scare me. i have so much stress. mostly school and my family. they expect so much FUCKING SHIT it makes me sick. if its not one thing its something else i screw up. i dont know whats best for me anymore, i dont know who really cares, i dont know shit. and im tired of it all. to much drama. i want to get so far away. from everyone. its like i have to let everyone go for a while, to get myself back together. because i can honestly admit i dont know myself anymore. i got some serious praying to do, just me and the big man lol. i just need some alone time. so sorry to everyone if i have been bitching to you and dont take it seriously because i dont mean it. everyone thinks im mad at them and it sucks. ok im done. night night sweet dreams!!! and i love yall.. happy 4/20 too
ok bye allisonrachel