muse_shuffle: March Disc One
7. When I have nothing to say my lips are sealed >> Say something once why say it again (Talking Heads - ‘Psycho Killer’)
Everyone has secrets. It’s those secrets that keep people gelled together. Many of them people are fearful to share. You know you have things you should say, but it’s never quite so easy to bring to fruition.
I have a huge secret, kept from one of the people I love the most in this world. I don’t know if I’ll ever tell him, or how he would even react if I did. I wish it wasn’t something I needed to harbour, but it’s also not something I can turn back the clock and change. Deep down, I know I should tell him, but is it really going to change anything if he knows? It wouldn’t. It’s in the past now and it’s gone.
Of course, I can’t help but wonder what would’ve been if it had all gone another way. What would’ve happened, where we would be today. Even all those months ago, I was too scared to share it with him. He was entitled to know… probably still is. I did tell someone, it just wasn’t him when it should’ve been him all along. It felt odd and hollow admitting it to my friend Lachlan, of all people. Lachlan, who I’d only known a few months and was well and truly connected to Tara. But he understood, and listened, and that’s all I needed at the time. Inevitably, he suggested I tell the person I really should’ve been speaking to, though without pushing or judgement.
I will one day. Of course I will…
Or maybe I won’t.
Muse | Dr. Allison Cameron
Fandom | House, M.D.
Word Count | 258
Everyone has secrets. It’s those secrets that keep people gelled together. Many of them people are fearful to share. You know you have things you should say, but it’s never quite so easy to bring to fruition.
I have a huge secret, kept from one of the people I love the most in this world. I don’t know if I’ll ever tell him, or how he would even react if I did. I wish it wasn’t something I needed to harbour, but it’s also not something I can turn back the clock and change. Deep down, I know I should tell him, but is it really going to change anything if he knows? It wouldn’t. It’s in the past now and it’s gone.
Of course, I can’t help but wonder what would’ve been if it had all gone another way. What would’ve happened, where we would be today. Even all those months ago, I was too scared to share it with him. He was entitled to know… probably still is. I did tell someone, it just wasn’t him when it should’ve been him all along. It felt odd and hollow admitting it to my friend Lachlan, of all people. Lachlan, who I’d only known a few months and was well and truly connected to Tara. But he understood, and listened, and that’s all I needed at the time. Inevitably, he suggested I tell the person I really should’ve been speaking to, though without pushing or judgement.
I will one day. Of course I will…
Or maybe I won’t.
Muse | Dr. Allison Cameron
Fandom | House, M.D.
Word Count | 258