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I like being alone, its probably the one thing that I REALLY TRULLY need. It’s like my drug, loneliness is my drug, not depending on people and not sitting there watching people hurt me is the best thing in the world. If your alone you do not have to love, and love is probably the biggest oxymoron out there, it makes you feel so great but the it inevitably hurts you . Lets be honest who needs that? Who needs to crave one person for their whole entire life, who needs to completely depend on one person for the rest of their life? I don’t, I guess being burnt so many times has finally shown me the reality….you can love just about any one you choose, but that wont make you happy, it will tear u up one side and down the other. It will stress you and out make u cry, it will make you do the stupidest things in the world, and make you believe that it is the only way out…but it’s not.
I feel my self pulling away from everyone. My friends I am not able to talk to, especially when I’m going through a hard time, but they don’t care….they might pretend they do, but I know its all and act. Sure I shout at them when they do the littlest thing to upset me, but that’s just how I am, and they can’t take it. Which is why I want to be alone, I wont have to deal with those stupid fights, I wont have to deal with people holding things over my head, and I wont have to trust people, I especially wont have to trust people.
I want to get away more then anything, I want to take a week off and just go some where and sit some where and be alone, I don’t want people to call me there, I don’t want any one to see me, I just want to be with my self….all alone….I would really like that…..solitude it a beautiful thing….
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allison
I feel my self pulling away from everyone. My friends I am not able to talk to, especially when I’m going through a hard time, but they don’t care….they might pretend they do, but I know its all and act. Sure I shout at them when they do the littlest thing to upset me, but that’s just how I am, and they can’t take it. Which is why I want to be alone, I wont have to deal with those stupid fights, I wont have to deal with people holding things over my head, and I wont have to trust people, I especially wont have to trust people.
I want to get away more then anything, I want to take a week off and just go some where and sit some where and be alone, I don’t want people to call me there, I don’t want any one to see me, I just want to be with my self….all alone….I would really like that…..solitude it a beautiful thing….
<3
allison