and so, another wedding change >:O

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and so for those of you who dont know, the elks burnt to the ground this morning.. yep, that was my reception hall.. and yep im pretty bummed.. its like almost all of the wedding planning that i had done this spring/early summer has just went down the drain.. like i shouldnt have even bothered and waited until the last second or something.. i tried to make my senior year easy by getting most of the big stuff out of the way early and what do i have to do? change it.. change the date.. change the time.. change the type of party.. change the reception hall.. change my colors.. cant find brides maids dresses i like.. cant figure out exactly what flowers i want.. cant decide on food for the wedding (which now, we can think about some more since i have to find a new reception hall) cant get ppl to give me their effing addresses.. still dont have an officiant (sp?).. eff it all im going to have my wedding in florida!!! **not really but im really starting to feel like i dont want anything ive wanted bc i have to keep changing everything!**

and really.. im trying to not stress out about anything yet.. i have like 11 months or something and plenty of time.. but.. i really just wanted everything to work and it just doesnt want to work with me :(