o how i do love my life......blah
ok so been feeling pretty crummy about things again...i wish i could help it but i cant....lab guy (those of who are close to me & know who im talking about) married, happily i might add....yea so thats my life basically....anyways, school is being school and i've got a heavy load as usual. work is work and im doing it alot. one happy thing, my new apt with justin is exactly what i wanted and needed. i love all the people that regularly visit and feel so glad to have all of them and to the newbies, welcome! friends are awesome and id be lost without them......valerie thank you for all the awesome times we've had the past few weeks, i feel like us again :) u dont move okay? and kate, u scare the shit out of me because i know u arent telling me whats going on but i have a good idea and it needs to stop u are better than that and have too much going for u to fuck things up so cut it out, i mean it, i love u.and erin, heather is a ho and will only continue to treat u the way she does because she knows u will let her, tell her no more and that u cant hang out with her anymore, on your grounds, YOU DO IT!!!! SHE DOESNT DESERVE U!.....as for me i feel ugly and i hate the way i look lately, so im trying to make myself feel better by going to the gym and not eating and the gym only makes me sicker because i feel like the ugliest person there....i wonder if what im doing is worth anything and it scares me to think this way......i went to biddeford the other day, hadnt been there in a while and it made my stomach hurt, ugh now i know why i dont go there.....ive been thinking about mark lately, and that doesnt make me feel any better......so yea lifes great. just freakin peachy