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so the thesis is tonight. and i'm freaking out. smoking ciggarettes. its really great that everyone says its going to be fine and all but i'm about to shit my pants. i shouldn't have had so much coffee. i just wish i had schedueled it for an earlier time because fuck man. 7pm is a long way off. argh. the movie is done at least and with a short little monologue at the front everything should make sense at least. i wish i knew that this was it. that it was over after this because all of these sustained projects are just driving me crazy. maybe i'll pull out the cards and give them a twirl around. that will help me know what to expect. meanwhile, i can't get warm after the bike ride last night and i have a crick in my back. just want to dissapear. this is what happens when i'm called upon. argh. so ready for summer already and this week is it. classes starting next monday. with a five page french paper to write for friday i just can't relax. fuck me.