starting once again
i am starting again, starting to write and have a life again, trying hard to love life trying hard to love everything and it is hard at times, and quite easy at others. People seem cruel and fake and i dislike those who are i cant handle those people in my life, too much negative, makes life sad and negative. treat people as you are treated, i try my hardest to be a good person on all levels and it give me personal satisfaction on only certain levels and it hurts when recognition is not existent. now i am not saying i would like someone to tell me everyday that i am a good person i would just like it if those around me would treat me as if i was a great person rather than just a friend that is around or just there. i dont want to be just there i want to be known, remembered, loved, for my good heart and kind soul, now i think i have this but i am not being egotistical or anything like that but i just feel as if some people dont know what they have when they have me, until i no longer talk or interact with them, it hurts
it hurts to love and not be loved back.
i am not talking about only those who i have close relationships with but those who i interact with on a daily basis and who i am genuinely nice to all the time. people are not perfect and i do have flaws and imperfections but love me for them, because i love you for them, i love people, but it is hard.
i got the buoyent award at my banquet, because i am one to bounce back and do what i have to do....
this is will power only, this is me. i bounce.... bouncing back....
and in a way i am tired of it
life isnt all about bouncing back all the time
i feel as if
i always am bouncing.
bounce... BOUNCE!... bounce! god dammit, why.? why does one who tries so hard to do right, does wrong.?
it hurts.
Girl of SARS! you are the greatest and love me for my faults... Ü
it hurts to love and not be loved back.
i am not talking about only those who i have close relationships with but those who i interact with on a daily basis and who i am genuinely nice to all the time. people are not perfect and i do have flaws and imperfections but love me for them, because i love you for them, i love people, but it is hard.
i got the buoyent award at my banquet, because i am one to bounce back and do what i have to do....
this is will power only, this is me. i bounce.... bouncing back....
and in a way i am tired of it
life isnt all about bouncing back all the time
i feel as if
i always am bouncing.
bounce... BOUNCE!... bounce! god dammit, why.? why does one who tries so hard to do right, does wrong.?
it hurts.
Girl of SARS! you are the greatest and love me for my faults... Ü