I don't know
I honestly thought everything was okay. I don't know what happened. Why is this out of the blue? Why do they think I'm still hung up on David? But I feel like I did when I was 19. just worthless, just crap, just i don't know. We're all miserable. i don't understand. Why couldn't they talk to me?
I don't want to write anymore. Not if this is what happens. I tried reaching out, I tried to move on and I got kicked. I have no idea what triggered this and I would rather be back living on the street again than feel like this. Why would the tell me that they know what I'm thinking? I don't understand this at all.
I just want this done. Either worked out, which is highly unlikely because they won't, I don;t know why. Or just done. Gone from our lives. James is a fucking wreck. I've never seen him cry like this. I love my friends, they've been trying but I just can't seem to do anything I just feel rotten. For the first time in a long time, I remember why i swallowed those pills fifteen years ago. How many lives would be better off if she hadn't found me? I get it, I'm the bad guy. I had feelings for David and it sucked and I moved on and I don't know why they're doing this now. What set this off? I thought we were all good... I can't fix something if I don't know you're pissed about it! I just. I don't know. At least I have better pills this time.
I don't want to write anymore. Not if this is what happens. I tried reaching out, I tried to move on and I got kicked. I have no idea what triggered this and I would rather be back living on the street again than feel like this. Why would the tell me that they know what I'm thinking? I don't understand this at all.
I just want this done. Either worked out, which is highly unlikely because they won't, I don;t know why. Or just done. Gone from our lives. James is a fucking wreck. I've never seen him cry like this. I love my friends, they've been trying but I just can't seem to do anything I just feel rotten. For the first time in a long time, I remember why i swallowed those pills fifteen years ago. How many lives would be better off if she hadn't found me? I get it, I'm the bad guy. I had feelings for David and it sucked and I moved on and I don't know why they're doing this now. What set this off? I thought we were all good... I can't fix something if I don't know you're pissed about it! I just. I don't know. At least I have better pills this time.