I just wish it was okay again
So. I'm at work. I just downloaded livejournal app for my phone so I can easily post and such. So maybe I'll post more often. Who knows.
I've been getting off track with my weightloss lately. I haven't been working out or jogging or anything anymore. I'm lazy as fuck and I hate it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm like in a rut. I need someone's help getting out. Can anyone help me?
I had a nice time at my birthday party. I can't believe I am 24 years old. Wow. All the things I had hoped to accomplish by now... and marriage and kids. Wow. Its pretty weird. I haven't given up on kids. Because I will have them. I've truly given up on me. I'm more so just done with the lying and the games. Why do guys feel the need to fucking lie about everything? Just tell me the damn truth.
Like Taylor. Yeah. You're married and love her but you're a sex addict so you can't be with her right now so you're fucking all these other girls. Instead of being an absolute dick he could have told me the game he intended on playing so no one got hurt. But in the end it was yet a fucking gain me. Its always me who gets hurt. Yanno why????? Because I believe the lies that are are being so carelessly spit into my face.
Tim and I have been talking the past week. He's claimed he's a changed man and wants me to move to Kentucky and be with him forever. Silly. I've actually been thinking about it. Like straight up thinking I'm going there. I've put aside north Carolina to explore this Tim thing. Get my feelers out there, see if he's actually sincere or not. Its hard to tell. Its hard to tell anything being so damn far away from everyone.
I hate this place. I really do. Its like with each day that goes on the more pissed off and bitter I get. I wish that wasn't happening but it is and there's no way to stop it until I'm driving over the fucking state line. If I go to Tim he wants me to come in October. If I go to Tamara's then I wait til right after Thanksgiving. So yanno I just wish someone could tell me what to do. I have Tamara telling me to go there, Tim telling me to go to him and a bunch of people telling me no to both or yes to one.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I wish I could cry. I want to cry. Really. I do. But what do I cry about first?
I've been getting off track with my weightloss lately. I haven't been working out or jogging or anything anymore. I'm lazy as fuck and I hate it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm like in a rut. I need someone's help getting out. Can anyone help me?
I had a nice time at my birthday party. I can't believe I am 24 years old. Wow. All the things I had hoped to accomplish by now... and marriage and kids. Wow. Its pretty weird. I haven't given up on kids. Because I will have them. I've truly given up on me. I'm more so just done with the lying and the games. Why do guys feel the need to fucking lie about everything? Just tell me the damn truth.
Like Taylor. Yeah. You're married and love her but you're a sex addict so you can't be with her right now so you're fucking all these other girls. Instead of being an absolute dick he could have told me the game he intended on playing so no one got hurt. But in the end it was yet a fucking gain me. Its always me who gets hurt. Yanno why????? Because I believe the lies that are are being so carelessly spit into my face.
Tim and I have been talking the past week. He's claimed he's a changed man and wants me to move to Kentucky and be with him forever. Silly. I've actually been thinking about it. Like straight up thinking I'm going there. I've put aside north Carolina to explore this Tim thing. Get my feelers out there, see if he's actually sincere or not. Its hard to tell. Its hard to tell anything being so damn far away from everyone.
I hate this place. I really do. Its like with each day that goes on the more pissed off and bitter I get. I wish that wasn't happening but it is and there's no way to stop it until I'm driving over the fucking state line. If I go to Tim he wants me to come in October. If I go to Tamara's then I wait til right after Thanksgiving. So yanno I just wish someone could tell me what to do. I have Tamara telling me to go there, Tim telling me to go to him and a bunch of people telling me no to both or yes to one.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I wish I could cry. I want to cry. Really. I do. But what do I cry about first?