I'm Back
Life is too short for me to be down on anything at all. I am who I am, and that's a great person with a great personality. I've made plenty of mistakes in my time, especially in the past few years. While I think that what I got was undeserved, I am going to give life a go again. I fell off of a horse, actually, I was pushed off by someone who I didn't think would push me off, and now I'm getting on another one on my own.
I think of drawing, and playing DDR, and Final Fantasy VII. I think of school, math, and poetry. I think of working out, and getting a nice, cut up, sexy body. I think of the music I listen to and the clubs I will be attending. I think of the movies I will go and see by myself, with friends, and the places I will go by myself, and with friends.
I'm that boi that can give you a little bit of everything. I can give you a little bit of hiphop-Brooklyn style, or I can give you a little bit of rock. I can give you some house music, or I can give you some trance.
I can pop and lock, or breakdance, or dancehall. I can talk about music, or astronomy. I can be the sexiest nerd you will ever meet, or the rawest nigga you'll ever come across.
I'm smart, like you wouldn't know. I love puzzles, I love math, I love reading, and I love life. I appreciate God, and I don't take anything for granted. I'm different, like I will always be. That's just the way it is.
I'm still here. I don't need to start over because I don't need to lie to myself. Who I am will always be my past, and will guide my future. Me accepting who I am is truth. No one can escape truth.
So here it is;
Thank you, Ceejay Capistrano. You've given me three and some change years of my life of a beautiful relationship. I am proud of what you have achieved, what you will become, and who you are. I love you. You will always have a special place in my heart. I've already asked you to remember that, so this is just me saying thanks and making amends with myself. I'm writing thank you most of all for me, not you. I can forgive you for what you have done. I can see myself being friends with you in the future, although that is definately not a necessity of mine. Thank you, Ceejay.
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So I pick up where I left off, NOW. Thank you everyone who has been there for me this past week and a half. Angel, Julio, Deshaun, Sarah, Andre, Gail, Shana, Eileen, Mom, Crystal, Tina, co-workers, Jose, Melissa, Adam, Osh (even though I haven't gotten to speak with you yet in detail, but I know you are there for me regardless), and anyone else that contributed.
I may still have to work with myself in this journal to express how I feel, but from now on; it's not that I won't let this get the best of me. It's that it won't exist in me to get the best of me in the first place.
It's all reality.
Ant
I think of drawing, and playing DDR, and Final Fantasy VII. I think of school, math, and poetry. I think of working out, and getting a nice, cut up, sexy body. I think of the music I listen to and the clubs I will be attending. I think of the movies I will go and see by myself, with friends, and the places I will go by myself, and with friends.
I'm that boi that can give you a little bit of everything. I can give you a little bit of hiphop-Brooklyn style, or I can give you a little bit of rock. I can give you some house music, or I can give you some trance.
I can pop and lock, or breakdance, or dancehall. I can talk about music, or astronomy. I can be the sexiest nerd you will ever meet, or the rawest nigga you'll ever come across.
I'm smart, like you wouldn't know. I love puzzles, I love math, I love reading, and I love life. I appreciate God, and I don't take anything for granted. I'm different, like I will always be. That's just the way it is.
I'm still here. I don't need to start over because I don't need to lie to myself. Who I am will always be my past, and will guide my future. Me accepting who I am is truth. No one can escape truth.
So here it is;
Thank you, Ceejay Capistrano. You've given me three and some change years of my life of a beautiful relationship. I am proud of what you have achieved, what you will become, and who you are. I love you. You will always have a special place in my heart. I've already asked you to remember that, so this is just me saying thanks and making amends with myself. I'm writing thank you most of all for me, not you. I can forgive you for what you have done. I can see myself being friends with you in the future, although that is definately not a necessity of mine. Thank you, Ceejay.
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So I pick up where I left off, NOW. Thank you everyone who has been there for me this past week and a half. Angel, Julio, Deshaun, Sarah, Andre, Gail, Shana, Eileen, Mom, Crystal, Tina, co-workers, Jose, Melissa, Adam, Osh (even though I haven't gotten to speak with you yet in detail, but I know you are there for me regardless), and anyone else that contributed.
I may still have to work with myself in this journal to express how I feel, but from now on; it's not that I won't let this get the best of me. It's that it won't exist in me to get the best of me in the first place.
It's all reality.
Ant