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Quick notes on the topic of What's Up With Me.
I did a live storytelling showcase and got back into the swing of live performing. I hope to do it again. The audience was engaged and several of my friends showed. Open mics and a storytelling "lab" up next in May. Might bore you with a few audio or video posts of said storytelling. Rah.
Work is going fairly well. For work. I still think they don't know what to do with me and I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing exactly for them, but they think this is some massive undertaking that I should be doing, but they can't actually describe specifically the tasks involved in said undertaking. I just offer myself right and left, show up when they want me to, smile wide and pay compliments. It's a good starter job for me, leading me to believe that the depression/illness has lifted enough that I could go back to work. Full time, even.
I attended the Paley Center for Media's panel on FARGO with Martin Freeman (first time seeing him live, but he looks the *same* and it hardly bears noting)... and Billy Bob Thornton, Keith Carradine, Colin Hanks, the producer and writer, and AMAZING newcomer, Allison Tolman, who has never been in a television show or film before, and was plucked out of her temp job to star in this incredible role. She is down to earth, funny, fantastic. My new role model. Check her out. ALSO look at the fantastic shots taken by innie_darling in her journal.
John Simm is in a new ITV series called PREY and the first ep was fantastic. Tightly paced thriller with JOHN SIMM. He just takes up the entire screen and is riveting in every performance.
I'm still in love with Miranda Hart and want to have her babies.
Love life: proceeding apace. The Brit and I are getting along very well. I like him. I also know that I don't want to jump into some all-consuming relationship and neither does he, so I'm trying to be aware of that, particularly when we are sort of grinning goofily at each other with doe eyes. I've been affection-and-communication starved for so long that it's interesting to note what happens when I'm cared for (and not just by him, but the abdication of the spousal unit has freed me up to engage with others I care about in a more meaningful way.
I also went on that date with that couple I mentioned. She is also great, but he cheated on her aggressively in their marriage and she doesn't know what her life with him would be like, nor what she wants. So I like them both, but I have to tell them I just can't have that kind of drama in my life. He would be worried about what she thinks, she would be worried he and I liked each other too much, I would be worried I was causing a rift between them... whatever you get the picture. Now that I know her better, and know how much pain she's been in, it's less of a la la la fun threesome thing. It's drama and mama don't want drama!
Date on Sunday with no-chemistry guy. We'll be friends. Date on Wednesday with really short guy who has many cool interests and I'm excited to talk to him but wondering if I still like short guys or if a guy shorter than me won't be attractive. GIRLS. Jesus lord. A girl wrote me the other day and I was like "she's cool, she's pretty, she's bi, this could happen." Then she was like "by the way, any interest in a threesome with my bf and me?" Um no. Communicating with another older woman from a stale marriage, who live in NJ, and at least the exchanges are meaningful. And who knows what will happen tomorrow?
I did a live storytelling showcase and got back into the swing of live performing. I hope to do it again. The audience was engaged and several of my friends showed. Open mics and a storytelling "lab" up next in May. Might bore you with a few audio or video posts of said storytelling. Rah.
Work is going fairly well. For work. I still think they don't know what to do with me and I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing exactly for them, but they think this is some massive undertaking that I should be doing, but they can't actually describe specifically the tasks involved in said undertaking. I just offer myself right and left, show up when they want me to, smile wide and pay compliments. It's a good starter job for me, leading me to believe that the depression/illness has lifted enough that I could go back to work. Full time, even.
I attended the Paley Center for Media's panel on FARGO with Martin Freeman (first time seeing him live, but he looks the *same* and it hardly bears noting)... and Billy Bob Thornton, Keith Carradine, Colin Hanks, the producer and writer, and AMAZING newcomer, Allison Tolman, who has never been in a television show or film before, and was plucked out of her temp job to star in this incredible role. She is down to earth, funny, fantastic. My new role model. Check her out. ALSO look at the fantastic shots taken by innie_darling in her journal.
John Simm is in a new ITV series called PREY and the first ep was fantastic. Tightly paced thriller with JOHN SIMM. He just takes up the entire screen and is riveting in every performance.
I'm still in love with Miranda Hart and want to have her babies.
Love life: proceeding apace. The Brit and I are getting along very well. I like him. I also know that I don't want to jump into some all-consuming relationship and neither does he, so I'm trying to be aware of that, particularly when we are sort of grinning goofily at each other with doe eyes. I've been affection-and-communication starved for so long that it's interesting to note what happens when I'm cared for (and not just by him, but the abdication of the spousal unit has freed me up to engage with others I care about in a more meaningful way.
I also went on that date with that couple I mentioned. She is also great, but he cheated on her aggressively in their marriage and she doesn't know what her life with him would be like, nor what she wants. So I like them both, but I have to tell them I just can't have that kind of drama in my life. He would be worried about what she thinks, she would be worried he and I liked each other too much, I would be worried I was causing a rift between them... whatever you get the picture. Now that I know her better, and know how much pain she's been in, it's less of a la la la fun threesome thing. It's drama and mama don't want drama!
Date on Sunday with no-chemistry guy. We'll be friends. Date on Wednesday with really short guy who has many cool interests and I'm excited to talk to him but wondering if I still like short guys or if a guy shorter than me won't be attractive. GIRLS. Jesus lord. A girl wrote me the other day and I was like "she's cool, she's pretty, she's bi, this could happen." Then she was like "by the way, any interest in a threesome with my bf and me?" Um no. Communicating with another older woman from a stale marriage, who live in NJ, and at least the exchanges are meaningful. And who knows what will happen tomorrow?