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watched brokeback mountain again tonight for the first time in a year. jesus, it doesn't feel like it's been that long, and i still bawled through the last 15 minutes or so. (silently, because my brother & his girlfriend had gotten home not long before, but still. STILL.) jack, i swear.... Kills. Me.
but then, that's pretty much what i wanted tonight. after a good day & night yesterday, doing laundry at mom's then driving pretty much aimlessly around with drew's gf, i wanted to spend the day sleeping, watching dvds and definitely in my pajamas. i needed not to think. thinking is just too much the last few weeks. i can't handle it. and so, brokeback mountain (which my mom finally gave back to me friday night after having had it, still packaged, since i bought it last year). it just seemed appropriate, and i knew it'd knock me on my ass. and it did but good.
two weeks from tonight i'll be fast asleep in sam's bed (maybe even cuddling with his kitty). i'll have spent the day with steph and maybe others, and i'll be doing anything BUT getting ready for work, hehe. it's a nice thought. i just have to figure out how to last until then.
you say that things change, my dear.....
after posting about song of the lark a few days ago, i had the urge to read it, and went looking for it. but i can't find it, and it's driving me absolutely insane. i know it's here somewhere -- it HAS to be here *somewhere* -- but i don't know where. and i've had the book since high school, so even though there's nothing really all that remarkable about my copy, i don't want to just go out and buy a new copy. (it's the principle of the thing more than anything, really, but whatever.) but i might have to do just that, because i can't find it. for that matter, i can't find a small rain, either. i'd like to think it's a big conspiracy, but it's probably that i just put them both in the overflow box that went into the alcoves when i filled my bookshelf. but i think about it, and i can remember seeing it in my laptop bag, although i can't for the life of me remember how long ago that was......oh, well. they'll turn up, hopefully. i may buy a new copy of song of the lark in the meantime, though. it really has been a long time.
oh, and the girl who was my first girlcrush? her name was debbie. i remembered this morning, and confirmed earlier tonight in my yearbook. i can't believe what a blank i drew on that, how random.
(ugh, i desperately need an icon refresh. ugh.)
goodnight moon.
mwah.
~a
but then, that's pretty much what i wanted tonight. after a good day & night yesterday, doing laundry at mom's then driving pretty much aimlessly around with drew's gf, i wanted to spend the day sleeping, watching dvds and definitely in my pajamas. i needed not to think. thinking is just too much the last few weeks. i can't handle it. and so, brokeback mountain (which my mom finally gave back to me friday night after having had it, still packaged, since i bought it last year). it just seemed appropriate, and i knew it'd knock me on my ass. and it did but good.
two weeks from tonight i'll be fast asleep in sam's bed (maybe even cuddling with his kitty). i'll have spent the day with steph and maybe others, and i'll be doing anything BUT getting ready for work, hehe. it's a nice thought. i just have to figure out how to last until then.
you say that things change, my dear.....
after posting about song of the lark a few days ago, i had the urge to read it, and went looking for it. but i can't find it, and it's driving me absolutely insane. i know it's here somewhere -- it HAS to be here *somewhere* -- but i don't know where. and i've had the book since high school, so even though there's nothing really all that remarkable about my copy, i don't want to just go out and buy a new copy. (it's the principle of the thing more than anything, really, but whatever.) but i might have to do just that, because i can't find it. for that matter, i can't find a small rain, either. i'd like to think it's a big conspiracy, but it's probably that i just put them both in the overflow box that went into the alcoves when i filled my bookshelf. but i think about it, and i can remember seeing it in my laptop bag, although i can't for the life of me remember how long ago that was......oh, well. they'll turn up, hopefully. i may buy a new copy of song of the lark in the meantime, though. it really has been a long time.
oh, and the girl who was my first girlcrush? her name was debbie. i remembered this morning, and confirmed earlier tonight in my yearbook. i can't believe what a blank i drew on that, how random.
(ugh, i desperately need an icon refresh. ugh.)
goodnight moon.
mwah.
~a