i could look at your face for a thousand years
my present seems to have gone over well. of course, in my own, inimitable fashion, i may have ruined it by being monumentally stupid.
well, i'm nothing if not consistent.
i really do find myself wishing i had more to say these days. there's just.......nothing here that i haven't already spoken/written/what have you about in great detail. my life what it is: work is work, the tv season's starting up, which is awesome, but emotion and happiness-wise, i'm pretty much biding time until late october, when i go to florida and (hopefully) figure out a great many things. and until then? i'm in pretty much the same shoes i was in a year ago: sitting here, being "patient", accepting the status quo even though it's confusing and scary and potentially heartbreaking (but also potentially heartshatteringly beautiful and happy and *everything*). this time, though, i know what i could lose -- maybe am losing, every day that goes by. so i'll sit, and i'll wait, and i'll bide my time some more, and hope that the light hasn't gone out by the time i reach the end of the tunnel.
i may actually fade away here again for a little while. not that it feels like anyone's noticing anyway, since everyone else's lives are insanity incarnate. but just as a warning for those few of you who still look forward to my postings occasionally. in the meantime, standard contact methods do still apply. if you need any advice in those directions, let me know.
mwah.
~a
well, i'm nothing if not consistent.
i really do find myself wishing i had more to say these days. there's just.......nothing here that i haven't already spoken/written/what have you about in great detail. my life what it is: work is work, the tv season's starting up, which is awesome, but emotion and happiness-wise, i'm pretty much biding time until late october, when i go to florida and (hopefully) figure out a great many things. and until then? i'm in pretty much the same shoes i was in a year ago: sitting here, being "patient", accepting the status quo even though it's confusing and scary and potentially heartbreaking (but also potentially heartshatteringly beautiful and happy and *everything*). this time, though, i know what i could lose -- maybe am losing, every day that goes by. so i'll sit, and i'll wait, and i'll bide my time some more, and hope that the light hasn't gone out by the time i reach the end of the tunnel.
i may actually fade away here again for a little while. not that it feels like anyone's noticing anyway, since everyone else's lives are insanity incarnate. but just as a warning for those few of you who still look forward to my postings occasionally. in the meantime, standard contact methods do still apply. if you need any advice in those directions, let me know.
mwah.
~a