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[alive_yet_alone]

funeral went well..i couldn't understand most of it because i don't speak french but it was a good way to remember her. it was in the church where my mom made her first communion, where my parents got married, where my brother and i were baptized. it's a beautiful church. my dad was there so i sat with him. he looks so old and sick. the whole time i couldn't help but wonder if his would be the next funeral i go to. it made me cry and then i felt selfish because i wasnt crying for my greatgrandmother, i was crying for the man sitting right next to me. it made me feel kind of selfish so i stopped thinking about it.

at the reception all i heard from my family was how i'm my mother's clone. how much i look like her. i still don't see it.

well, vshow and movies tonight..should be fun, minus my being insanely sick. oh well, my voice and energy are gone and i need a nap. pz