Sick
What a day. Steve and I had the worst fight ever. It was so bad, we even broke up. After everything we've gone through over the past 5 months, we finally broke up. I'm such a fucking bitch. I can't stress how big of a bitch I am. I seriously can't even explaine how hurt he was. We both have the worst tempers, but I think tonight, I finally put the icing on the cake. I let all of my anger, and hurt feelings cloud my love, and sanity. He means so much to me. Why did I have to fuck everything up? I don't know why, but for some reason or another, I've been feeling like it would be better off this way, but when it all comes down to it, I know I'm just lieing to myself. I feel like the luckiest girl on earth when I am with him, and I feel like the luckiest person in the world because after all this, we're back together. I don't get us sometimes (especially myself). We have different reasonings for different things, but in the end, we're one in the same. I can't believe I hurt the one person that means absoutley everything to me. I mean, we're moving in together in less than a year and a half, we're getting married, and we even have our kids' names picked out, and set in stone. What kind of moron would even dream of screwing that up? Apparently me. My anger always seems to get the best of me, but that's no excuse. Steve was right. He said that if your in love, you never give up. When do you know when enough is enough? You don't...Because enough is never enough, and there is never a good enough reason to give up the one person you've given your heart to. I've given him my heart, and soul. We both hold the key to each others hearts, and only us. He's my baby, and I'm going to make sure that I never let my anger get in the way of my true feelings. I will never put you down, be controlling, or walk all over your emotions again. You have just as much say in this relationship as I do. I love you more than life itself, or anything else imaginable. We're in this together. There was a reason we clicked from the very beginning, and we're still figuring it out. I love you, and nothing will ever change that. No matter what. I promise.
I love you * Forever
I love you * Forever