YAY! I'm back!!!

[alissa69]

Erm...yeah, I WAS writing in this actually journal. With pages and a cover. (sort of) lol, but I kinda quit and yeah...I felt all disappointed cuz I was soooo gonna keep a journal but this is easier. Well, a lot a lot a lot has happened since my last entry. Lol! So much! Ummmm...I work at the theater now, don't know if I did before. Ummm, I'm not going out with Arturo!!!!!!!! He moved to California or something. Not sure if he's staying! *shrugs* Though it doesn't really matter since apparently I don't exist. :P Ummm, Elyse decided to like Arturo...which is crazy. Not even going to get into that as it kinda pisses me off how she was all, "He's an asshole, dump him, etc, etc," and then turns around and is all "Oh! He's a really great guy." *shrugs* Anyway!! Amanda and me are all friendly again! Which is great cuz I missed her somethin' horrible. She got her hair cut today which looks super duper awesome!! I wanna get mine cut too, just I don't know how. I WOULD get it layered and stuff like her, but I don't wanna copy! Plus we'd have the same haircut and be the same height with the same-ish build (Manda has bigger boobs!! ROFL! *cowers*) and stuff and it wouldn't be cool. Was thinkin' about dying it this summer, but I think I've had enough bad experiences with that to say no. Maybe like red (STOP SIGN RED) highlights or something. *shrugs* Erm, started playing my bass again. Actually got to where I can play AND sing! (Not well...mind you...but I can do it!) Umm...my grades suck ass...I think I'm gonna fail: *gets out list* *list rolls to ground and keeps going like a red carpet* Algebra, Global Perspectives, Spanish, and Language Arts! Okay, so that's not THAT many..but out of 6 classes that's 4!! So yeah, that would seriously suck. Elyse gets to go on vacation with us in November. I'm worried that I'll get annoyed with her and bitch at her and like...completely fuck up our friendship. It's just...I dunno. I might be jealous of her? She's tall, skinny, etc. etc. Whereas...I'm not! Lol, and yeah. Plus she's smart, talented, athletic, etc. etc. the list goes on! And she's just so much more...spunky than me nowadays. I'm a shitload happier than I've been since oh about November 14th *coughcoughcoughcough* But like...she's STILL happier than me. I dunno how she does it. But yeah, so I'm workin' on that. I quit cutting. Went for erm....2 months almost I think before I slipped up. Those thumbtacks were calling to me! I didn't think I'd cut that bad, but it looks like it'll leave a couple nice scars. *tries not to look happy about this* Umm....today we had like no classes because we had these little..erm..I dunno what they're called! But we went and listened to different people speak about stuff. I had some depression and stress thing, a teen suicide thing, self defense, and a couple others. Mr. Engelhart was the Self Defense guy so it was cool. He's insane. I'll probably go back to TKD this summer..but I made a condition with him, "NO SPARRING!" he said maybe! *squeals* That'd be awesome! Except I don't remember any of the forms. Well, it's almst 10:30 and I've still gotta brush my teeth and all that before bed! So I'd better be going. It's strange...typing on the computer for my journal is so much more fulfilling than writing by hand. Maybe this'll be good for me! Who knows! Well...good to be back! *hugs all 1 of her readers* *wink Manda* Later!

--Alissa

"Some people wear their smile like a disguise. Those people who smile a lot, watch the eyes. I know 'cause I'm like that a lot. You think everything's okay, and it is...'til it's not."

--don't remember where I heard this...*shrugs*