This Little Black Sheep
So it's been forever since I've updated...and a while since I've been able to sit and go over all the posts I missed. Both exam and essay hell are over and I'm glad for it. School is over for the time being which means I get to look for a job this summer
...yippee...
Meh, I know I need it anyway so I'm not complaining overly much.
I also have become the owner of fish, which hasn't turned out overly well either. It started as an April Fool's joke where my mom works. One of the professors opened the door to his classroom and found the ground littered with plastic cups each with one goldfish in each. Funny joke....we ended up with the remaining eleven fish. Should have heard me then...sooo many fish and all mine.
Well, by the time I got home that day I found out we only have three left over. One was named Lucky after my friend Lucky_7 (He is small and has some black on his fins), one was named Micheal after my mom's friend (he was a big fat goldfish and a grump), and the last I named Kin (still smaller fish without the black). It was great fun to watch them in the bowl we had for them. The little ones beat up on and harrassed the bigger one and would have races around the bowl like there was no tomorrow (they were all pretty scare of middle of the bowl...stupid fish). Micheal was always being a grump and not wanting to do anything other than stick to one side of the bowl.
That finally came to an end when I found Kin dead in the bowl. I wasn't happy about it, but I hadn't gotten overly attached at that point so it was ok. The only thing about it that I found particularely disturbing was that it was the fish that I named personally that died first....
So time went on, Micheal died and Lucky lived up to his name with only being still alive. We finally went out and bought a real tank (it'll fit up to three goldfish and such, dinky plastic dealy, but it looks fine on the inside.) Then we figured Lucky needed a friend so yesterday or Friday (not sure which anymore) my mom went out and got another goldfish. We called her Momi after me because it was cute and kinda ironic because of me and Lucky over the net XD
But then things went down from there. We didn't see Momi swimming around at all, Lucky was the only one..Finally we checked in the ship we'd gotten for the tank and for the fishies to swim into and around...Well there was momi..dead. Now this is when I started to cry...not because I was overly attached...but because it was so sudden...and again the one I named personally died (within a few hours of being brought home no less).
It took pizza (which many people know I don't like)and a good dose of Bishonen to make me feel better. But I did and ended up going to bed at about four in the morning after some good chatting and roleplaying.
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And then I was woken up at 8:30 this morning by my mom (who was looking to be in shock) that my memere was dead. Since then my emotions have been up in the air and I couldn't get back to sleep. Tried reading a book and that didn't work. I started to wonder if maybe I'd want to go to the funeral in NewBrunswick, but come to think of it I couldn't deal with all those crying and bawling people. I have a hard time dealing with just my mother as it is. There would be ALOT of people at the funeral most I don't know...and the people I -do- know I haven't seen in the longest time and can't see myself feeling comforted being around. I'm the black sheep of the family I swear, I feel really disconnected from them...but my mom is going and I'll be home alone for about a week. In that time I can have my own memorial to my memere and if I need to I can have a good cry by myself. I can also ignore it if I need to.
I'm just glad my mom didn't try to force me to go. Both funerals I've ever been to were awkward affairs and I'd rather not repeat them. This is the best option for me I think...I feel really bad for my mom and the rest of the family who are going to be going through this, I hope it helps them.
So she's been running around the house trying to get things done after booking a flight for tomorrow morning early. Packing one minute, talking to family and friends the next, crying another, stressing or laughing the next. Very confusing right now.
Just want to say sorry to everybody I've neglected over the past little while. No chatting, no posts, no anything. Kisa, you most of all cuz I keep loosing touch and that bugs me. I really miss you and hope you're doing well. Gonna try and catch up on some older posts and see if I can't get something going to distract myself.
...yippee...
Meh, I know I need it anyway so I'm not complaining overly much.
I also have become the owner of fish, which hasn't turned out overly well either. It started as an April Fool's joke where my mom works. One of the professors opened the door to his classroom and found the ground littered with plastic cups each with one goldfish in each. Funny joke....we ended up with the remaining eleven fish. Should have heard me then...sooo many fish and all mine.
Well, by the time I got home that day I found out we only have three left over. One was named Lucky after my friend Lucky_7 (He is small and has some black on his fins), one was named Micheal after my mom's friend (he was a big fat goldfish and a grump), and the last I named Kin (still smaller fish without the black). It was great fun to watch them in the bowl we had for them. The little ones beat up on and harrassed the bigger one and would have races around the bowl like there was no tomorrow (they were all pretty scare of middle of the bowl...stupid fish). Micheal was always being a grump and not wanting to do anything other than stick to one side of the bowl.
That finally came to an end when I found Kin dead in the bowl. I wasn't happy about it, but I hadn't gotten overly attached at that point so it was ok. The only thing about it that I found particularely disturbing was that it was the fish that I named personally that died first....
So time went on, Micheal died and Lucky lived up to his name with only being still alive. We finally went out and bought a real tank (it'll fit up to three goldfish and such, dinky plastic dealy, but it looks fine on the inside.) Then we figured Lucky needed a friend so yesterday or Friday (not sure which anymore) my mom went out and got another goldfish. We called her Momi after me because it was cute and kinda ironic because of me and Lucky over the net XD
But then things went down from there. We didn't see Momi swimming around at all, Lucky was the only one..Finally we checked in the ship we'd gotten for the tank and for the fishies to swim into and around...Well there was momi..dead. Now this is when I started to cry...not because I was overly attached...but because it was so sudden...and again the one I named personally died (within a few hours of being brought home no less).
It took pizza (which many people know I don't like)and a good dose of Bishonen to make me feel better. But I did and ended up going to bed at about four in the morning after some good chatting and roleplaying.
...
....
.....
And then I was woken up at 8:30 this morning by my mom (who was looking to be in shock) that my memere was dead. Since then my emotions have been up in the air and I couldn't get back to sleep. Tried reading a book and that didn't work. I started to wonder if maybe I'd want to go to the funeral in NewBrunswick, but come to think of it I couldn't deal with all those crying and bawling people. I have a hard time dealing with just my mother as it is. There would be ALOT of people at the funeral most I don't know...and the people I -do- know I haven't seen in the longest time and can't see myself feeling comforted being around. I'm the black sheep of the family I swear, I feel really disconnected from them...but my mom is going and I'll be home alone for about a week. In that time I can have my own memorial to my memere and if I need to I can have a good cry by myself. I can also ignore it if I need to.
I'm just glad my mom didn't try to force me to go. Both funerals I've ever been to were awkward affairs and I'd rather not repeat them. This is the best option for me I think...I feel really bad for my mom and the rest of the family who are going to be going through this, I hope it helps them.
So she's been running around the house trying to get things done after booking a flight for tomorrow morning early. Packing one minute, talking to family and friends the next, crying another, stressing or laughing the next. Very confusing right now.
Just want to say sorry to everybody I've neglected over the past little while. No chatting, no posts, no anything. Kisa, you most of all cuz I keep loosing touch and that bugs me. I really miss you and hope you're doing well. Gonna try and catch up on some older posts and see if I can't get something going to distract myself.