Everybody in the club gettin tipsy...
Ok so saturday I didn't get up until 12...yeah I was tired ok! lol and I actually woke up pretty hyper..scary. I got ready and stuff and made it to Heathers house around 2. We went and got Starbucks and headed over to the Halloween store. She bought a different costume lol she's a cute lil fairy :-D we bought a bunch of halloween stuff for our haunted house...should be good..but watch it rian *grumbles* that would suck. Afterwards we came back to heathers and started getting ready for the dance...took us like 2 hours lol we both crimped our hair so that took a while :-D we looked cute hehe. I drove us over there and introduced her to peoples. It was cold at first but quickly heated up :-P I actually asked a couple guys to dance and one guy didn't even ask me..he just came up lol which is pretty dang normal at my school..fun stuff. Heather is convinced that it was all one big orgy *snorts* we're all just..close? DUDE! Ok James and Gerri...oh man lol. So Gerri actually freaked with James! it was the biggest shock of my life! and they KISSED! duuuuuude lol never thought I'd see the day..and James..he was soooo happy! I have never seen a bigger smile on his face! it was cute. however...they disappeared and we didn't see them the rest of the night..I shall call her about that later tonight dun dun DUUUUN! Yeah so it was fun. Our feet were killing us so we left about 10 mins early and went back to Heathers. We both got in comfortable clothes...felt SO good...made some food and then watched the Nightmare Before Christmas...gotta love that movie.
Got up this morning a bit sore...but not too bad actually. Church was alright and I had a yummy salade afterwards...yum! I started to head home..I called mom and here's my rant:
Ok so I called my mom to tell her I had a good time..she gave the phone to my sis and I talked to her for a while..she kept calling me a Dumbnut....um ok lol then she gave the phone back to mom who was pretty pissed and upset so I tried to talk to her about it..BIG mistake. She was getting so testy with Brittany and I tried to tell mom she's only human and wants attention. She exploded and was yelling that she was going insane and that she needed out and didn't know what to do. So I said I didn't know what to do either and she blew up at me! "Yeah, I figured. No one knows what to do. They just tell me to deal with it" What does she want ME to do? I'm her freakin 16 yr old daughter! I don't know what she wants from me and I feel so helpless...I can't stand this! She is hurting so much and I'm sitting here going to dances and crap...I know she wants me there halloween but I can't! and she doesn't understand that...she's so pissed at me..and I'm so hurt..I'm hurt that she's mad at me and I'm hurt cause she's hurting..I don't want this..I don't need this..I can't freakin take this! I need a way to deal with this cause right now my idea of dealin with this is NOT gunna help anything...
So that upset me so I came home and went to sleep. Woke up and did half my lab...*sigh* I don't understand it...I feel so stupid...
It's like...I'm happy one day and then everything crashes down. I've been hiding...I've been going places with Robert, having a blast and just barely getting work done..but I'm living. And then I hear from mom and I'm a complete wreck! I can't ignore it..but there's nothing I can do! God I'm dreading thankgiving...wanna know why? Cause I have to deal with it and trust me..U don't want me to deal with my family right now...
~Lyssy~
Got up this morning a bit sore...but not too bad actually. Church was alright and I had a yummy salade afterwards...yum! I started to head home..I called mom and here's my rant:
Ok so I called my mom to tell her I had a good time..she gave the phone to my sis and I talked to her for a while..she kept calling me a Dumbnut....um ok lol then she gave the phone back to mom who was pretty pissed and upset so I tried to talk to her about it..BIG mistake. She was getting so testy with Brittany and I tried to tell mom she's only human and wants attention. She exploded and was yelling that she was going insane and that she needed out and didn't know what to do. So I said I didn't know what to do either and she blew up at me! "Yeah, I figured. No one knows what to do. They just tell me to deal with it" What does she want ME to do? I'm her freakin 16 yr old daughter! I don't know what she wants from me and I feel so helpless...I can't stand this! She is hurting so much and I'm sitting here going to dances and crap...I know she wants me there halloween but I can't! and she doesn't understand that...she's so pissed at me..and I'm so hurt..I'm hurt that she's mad at me and I'm hurt cause she's hurting..I don't want this..I don't need this..I can't freakin take this! I need a way to deal with this cause right now my idea of dealin with this is NOT gunna help anything...
So that upset me so I came home and went to sleep. Woke up and did half my lab...*sigh* I don't understand it...I feel so stupid...
It's like...I'm happy one day and then everything crashes down. I've been hiding...I've been going places with Robert, having a blast and just barely getting work done..but I'm living. And then I hear from mom and I'm a complete wreck! I can't ignore it..but there's nothing I can do! God I'm dreading thankgiving...wanna know why? Cause I have to deal with it and trust me..U don't want me to deal with my family right now...
~Lyssy~