Life and the better parts...
So here goes...
I'm tired. Not physical just mentally. I want to do things but am limited by money and other materialistic things. Then again I want some materialistic things like a house and enough money to support a family. For that matter I want a family I want kids and I want Anthony too.
In-order for me to be able to provide I have to go back to school. In-order to go back to school I have to get student loans. So far that has been a little frustrating. I'm still hoping it all works out. Here's to positive thinking.
Hopefully looking back it will all make a little more sense then it is now. I'm nineteen and instead of being at college and wanting to party I want kids and I'm married. It's strange though I like married life. I like making dinner and folding laundry, but what I like the most is that that isn't all it is. It's missing him when he's at work, it's cuddling while we watch T.V., it's knowing when somethings wrong by the way he blinks of talks, it's wanting the same things, it's having him hold me even when he falls asleep, it's waking up next to him the smell of his hair. It's everything that we do for each other just because.
We've talked about having kids in the next two years. Waiting for two years that is. He wants two girls and I do too. It's everything I wanted.
I'm tired. Not physical just mentally. I want to do things but am limited by money and other materialistic things. Then again I want some materialistic things like a house and enough money to support a family. For that matter I want a family I want kids and I want Anthony too.
In-order for me to be able to provide I have to go back to school. In-order to go back to school I have to get student loans. So far that has been a little frustrating. I'm still hoping it all works out. Here's to positive thinking.
Hopefully looking back it will all make a little more sense then it is now. I'm nineteen and instead of being at college and wanting to party I want kids and I'm married. It's strange though I like married life. I like making dinner and folding laundry, but what I like the most is that that isn't all it is. It's missing him when he's at work, it's cuddling while we watch T.V., it's knowing when somethings wrong by the way he blinks of talks, it's wanting the same things, it's having him hold me even when he falls asleep, it's waking up next to him the smell of his hair. It's everything that we do for each other just because.
We've talked about having kids in the next two years. Waiting for two years that is. He wants two girls and I do too. It's everything I wanted.