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well, i havent posted anything here in YEARS...i think. oh well. i just have a need to rant without people seeing, so im assuming that that would be here. okay here i go
so the boy is living with me this week. i feel interesting about it. i dunno. its so nice to have him around all the time but im so afraid that im going to ware him out, as in that he'll get sick of me. he tells me that that is impossible and i do believe him...i just wrote out this long paragraph when i realized- he loves me, no matter what. i mean, yeah, hes been sleeping alone in my bed (he has work so i let him take it) but i dunno. i cant think and type right now. my train of thought crashed.........
okay, so i love the boy. is it possible to love some one too much? i dont think so. all i know is that i want to spend the rest of my life with him. i mean, a year and some months later, he still gives me that warm and fuzzy feeling in my stomache. not only that, but i get flustered, and goofy and i just cant think and i stumble over my words.
hes all i can think about. hes all i want to think about. hes the first thing that goes through my mind when i wake up in the morning, and the last thought when i go to bed. i cant sleep unless hes laying next to me. im not happy unless hes smiling. he means the world to me. he is my world. dammit, i miss him....and hes laying in my bed. oh my god, i love him. and i dont think that will ever change. i mean fuck, ive already decided that he is the man that i am going to spend the rest of my life with. forever.
so the boy is living with me this week. i feel interesting about it. i dunno. its so nice to have him around all the time but im so afraid that im going to ware him out, as in that he'll get sick of me. he tells me that that is impossible and i do believe him...i just wrote out this long paragraph when i realized- he loves me, no matter what. i mean, yeah, hes been sleeping alone in my bed (he has work so i let him take it) but i dunno. i cant think and type right now. my train of thought crashed.........
okay, so i love the boy. is it possible to love some one too much? i dont think so. all i know is that i want to spend the rest of my life with him. i mean, a year and some months later, he still gives me that warm and fuzzy feeling in my stomache. not only that, but i get flustered, and goofy and i just cant think and i stumble over my words.
hes all i can think about. hes all i want to think about. hes the first thing that goes through my mind when i wake up in the morning, and the last thought when i go to bed. i cant sleep unless hes laying next to me. im not happy unless hes smiling. he means the world to me. he is my world. dammit, i miss him....and hes laying in my bed. oh my god, i love him. and i dont think that will ever change. i mean fuck, ive already decided that he is the man that i am going to spend the rest of my life with. forever.