i dont want to grow up
So I think this is the first time in awhile that I have felt off....just kinda weird. I just watched the movie crash, and if u havnt seen it go rent it. It makes me feel like i need purpose in my life, like i need to make a differnce: find the cure for cancer or save someone's life...i dunno just do something.
Then I feel like everything is changing and it all hit me at once. Like everyone is changing, im changing and our relationships are changing. Things arent going to be the same this summer...its not gonna be as care free....I know im gonna have to work at least 40 hours a week and most of the people i have talked to, thats the same for them. I just i guess am afraid of growing up...yup im afraid...I dont want to grow up.
So I guess everyones purpose in life is to find balance...something that makes them happy and something that makes them strive to live...so im working on that. i probably wont find it for a couple of years, it may be the person i marry, my first child, my job or so on. Whatever it is, i know i will feel it.
I dont know if i make sense, i just feel confused
Then I feel like everything is changing and it all hit me at once. Like everyone is changing, im changing and our relationships are changing. Things arent going to be the same this summer...its not gonna be as care free....I know im gonna have to work at least 40 hours a week and most of the people i have talked to, thats the same for them. I just i guess am afraid of growing up...yup im afraid...I dont want to grow up.
So I guess everyones purpose in life is to find balance...something that makes them happy and something that makes them strive to live...so im working on that. i probably wont find it for a couple of years, it may be the person i marry, my first child, my job or so on. Whatever it is, i know i will feel it.
I dont know if i make sense, i just feel confused