Fic

[alicebluegown16]

Title: Something Real
Author: alicebluegown16
Pairing:Matt/Mohinder
Rating: R
Summary: There is far more going on beneath the surface when it comes to our boys. 
AN: Sequel to my story Fool Yourself. This be another dark fic. Seriously, there's a reason this story is saved under the file name EffedUpMatt. This is the kind of thing you write after

Comments

[hanuueshe]

*cries*

I have no words. This was beautiful. And just as intense but slightly more hopeful than the prequel. I love it. *Memes*

[alicebluegown16]

Thank you and so glad that the hopeful aspect came through.

Initial heady reactions

[meleth]

You're completely wonderful, you know that? I had no idea, no earthly notion, of how they could come back from "Fool Yourself," and here you did it. And it's not really a happy ending, but it's so optimistic. A recognition of weakness, a meeting in a place where they're both fucked up, but they're being fucked up together. And oh god, Matt. The absolute horrors of his telepathy, and his inability to tell anyone. The fact that his hell isn't just his own thoughts, his own nightmares (and what horrible nightmares), his own fears, but the fears and jealousies and evils, big and small, of everyone around him. That's just heartbreaking. And Mohinder finally gets it, or at least gets what it must be like. And the borderline hate sex which is still oddly tender and you, you...wonderful, wonderful thing.

I'm deeply touched to have been a source of feedback on what turned into this fic.

Re: Initial heady reactions

[meleth]

And poor, poor Molly. Both of her dads are so fucked up, and there's no way the breakup didn't freak her right the hell out.

Re: Initial heady reactions

[meleth]

OK, last comment, with two minor beta-type things:

He pushes his tongue into Matt’s mouth and taste’s coffee and exhaustion, and A graceful shrug of shoulder’s. I believe you mean tastes and shoulders.

Re: Initial heady reactions

[alicebluegown16]

Eep!

Thankers.

[plotbunny_tiff]

I'm shaking and incoherent. This scraped against my heart, it left my *soul* raw, and I might just have to go into the bathroom lock myself in a stall and just weep. You just pulled so much out of both of them, but the study of Matt...I thought as a fandom everything that could be written about them internally was dead and done. You pulled a gem out of the ground and it all made so much sense, and the glass metaphor was so spot on and just...just...I'm babbling and I should stop but right now I love this and I love you with every atom I possess, love you so much I can't even be jealous and I don't *dare* wish I could write like you, can only sit back here and be *awed*

[alicebluegown16]

Thank you so much for your lovely comment.

*does a little dance that the glass metaphor worked*

The moment that image came to me, I built the whole story around it. I'm proud and relieved that such a dark take on the characters not only worked for you but rang true. That's always THE most nerve wracking aspect when departing so far from the source material. Of course, I don't view this as a diversion, just seeing what has to be there.

For the love of pete, Matt has been through so much. How could he not be a little messed up? Fingers crossed this will be explored in season three...

Now if you'll excuse me, I have a therapeutic fluffy Matt/Mo fic to work on. For my own mental well being, of course. Man can not live on soul scraping angst alone. Or at least not without ending up all twitchy.

[lea1santome]

it is true that Matt has many reasons to commit suicide, less evil that we do not get it!.

Mohinder have to suffer a little longer before being pardoned by Matt.

One more thing, I am glad that did not include Mohinder among the reasons for attempted suicide.

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es verdad que Matt tiene muchas razones para suicidarse, ¡menos mal que no lo conseguió!.

Mohinder tiene que sufrir un poco más antes de ser perdonado por Matt.

Una cosa más, me alegra que no incluyó a Mohinder entre los motivos del intento de suicidio.

[alicebluegown16]

Thank you.

I'm glad Matt's emotions and actions rang true. This dark of a departure for the character is very nerve wracking.

I don't think things will magically be sunshine and flowers for the boys, but they've taken a tiny step in the right direction and that's the important thing.

And yes, you are absolutely correct. It was essential to his character that Matt's reason's for suicide did not include Mohinder. Essential for Mohinder to realize that there is more beneatht the surface when it comes to Matt's pain and also essential that the reader know that Matt was damaged long before the betrayal. Not saying Mohinder didn't hurt him terribly, but that's nothing compared to the pain of Matt's other demons.

[blackdoggy1]

Oh YAY! Momo finally stopped being a bitch to my teddy! Thank God for the sequel! Great job!

[alicebluegown16]

Thank you.

Hope this made Mohinder's actions a little more understandable.

Happy you liked it.

[blackdoggy1]

Yeah..I think this one definitely explained some of his psychological motivation. Yes, I liked it alot. It was terrific!