Fucked up version of reality
It seems that things are starting to make sense and because of that, I will have to keep reminding myself of the epiphany. Dreams work out the way you've always wanted. It's the escape, or maybe distortion, of reality where you allow yourself to have the glimpse of the reality you want; however, it's only a reality in your unconscious mind and this sometimes blurs over to the actual conscious reality which is unfortunate because it isn't. How do you get there, to the dreams that is? Well, obviously hopes and desires and ambition. And this doesn't seem impossible for the career aspirations, but for love? Shit. Words and suggestions that get distorted and over-thought turn into this subconscious mind reality that should have only been originally viewed as what they are - words and suggestions. They don't mean what you distort them to mean; they merely mean what the intended shallow surface is. Dream start to happen when you start to read into things and that will only end badly for you. They mean nothing to the other person and that ends up hurting and tormenting you because you have allowed this distorted view to be what represents reality to you. And that is crazy to allow yourself to get caught up in something like that. While it may be pessimistic, it happens all too often. Why do we become attracted to the people we are attracted to? Why do we torture ourselves? We should just pick someone to mate with and be done with it. That would be the easy, non-emotional way to deal with complicated and damaging relationships. Instead, we want to be damaged and continue to live in a fucked up version of a (non)reality world. Blah, this crap!